Today I woke up at 5am, had an hour to myself to meditate and stretch, showered at 6am, cooked breakfast 630-7am and prepped dinner while I was there, while I was doing that DH was getting DS ready.
Had breakfast, cleared up, dropped DS to school.
Home by 9am, worked 9-2pm apart from a quick walk in the sun, picked DS up, took him to Occupational Therapy, got home, made dinner, ate dinner, played with DS for a bit, read together and collapsed in tears of overwhelm shortly after DH came home to take the baton.
I just feel exhausted. DS has SEN and needs a lot of input after school, he finishes early as they can't meet his needs at school. So I can't just let him potter about all afternoon and have to do his therapies with him.
I feel like I'm moving from one thing to another all day with no time for a breather. And then I do it all again the next day and the day after and just feel like I'm not doing anything well.
I long to just...stop...while he's at school instead of working. Instead of what feels like firefighting.
But isn't everyone in the same boat?! I feel like such a failure
No option to cut hours they've already been flexible enough letting me chop and change around DS school hours.
We have a cleaner
We can't sign up for meal boxes like hello fresh as have very specific dietary needs between us all, besides I'm not sure how much it'd help as the main thing I feel drained by is work
AIBU = suck it up buttercup, that's just middle aged life
AINBU = that sounds hard and you need to change something