I would never show her this or stifle her of course, but it’s a sadness I have inside.
We took years to have her, due to infertility, can’t have any more children.
Having her and this family life has been the hardest but also most joyous part of my life. I love family days to the zoo and the playground (appreciate lots don’t) but I think because it was just Dh and I for so long (which was lovely too, but in a different way) I don’t feel bored by this life of weekends at play centres and parks…I love it all.
I just really struggle with what family life will be like when she’s a bit older, just the three of us, what will we even do…and then when she’s grown and gone.
I know I need to stay in the moment, but those first 4 years at home and everything we did were really the happiest days ever. It just seemed to go so fast
I don’t know why I struggle so much with this, is it normal or do I need help?