Decided today I will throw in the towel for breastfeeding for the second time. With DC1 I ended up pumping exclusively as it didn't work out and day in day out I pumped, until 21 weeks (just shy of 5 months).
I couldn't face the pumps again, from 7 weeks if DH wanted to help with a night feed I stopped pumping a feed and told him to make formula. And from there with each feed dropped I've felt so much better as a mum.
Down to just 7am feed now and it's not going well. From tomorrow I will hand express it until a few weeks when I drop it. DC2 is 12 weeks, will be 15 weeks when I drop it.
Looking for some solidarity from mammas who have walked my shoes to tell me it's ok! And everything will be ok! I feel so happy in my decision but need some extra cheer.