I don’t know where to turn. In short I am a single parent to a 2.5 year old, his dad sees him frequently but I do 90% of care in the week. It’s just how it is. His work is shift based and mine is not. I do all nursery runs etc. Ex does help out where he can, it’s not about him.
Im just on my knees. I always feel on the cusp of crying. My job is so intense and although I’m well paid I always feel im clinging on. I feel sick with anxiety most nights about absolutely anything and everything:.. worry ds isn’t ok. Worry I will lose my job. Worry I will get unwell. worry about money if I did lose my job.
Life is a pit of anxiety. Ex and I went away for 3 nights after Xmas for ds to have a break and for me to go and see friends and honestly I feel worse for it. It’s like I have had a glimpse of not being non stop for a bit and I feel so sorry for myself. There’s no real answer here as I don’t want to go part time as I earn good money. Ex can’t do more than he does realistically and he has a good job which does benefit ds (he paid for the short break for example). I’m stuck. And constantly stressed. Is this just toddler life? I feel so deeply unhappy.