So, it’s been a crap stressful year. Marriage has been strained by outside factors. H worked away for most of December. Things finally improving and was mildly looking forward to today. Anyway, he is ill. Properly, not leaving bedroom unwell. Not overreacting - he’s in a bad way. So I’m here by myself with three smallish children (7 and under) limited food options as we are supposed to be at my mum’s this afternoon through Boxing Day. He’s done none of the Christmas morning work so I’ve done it all (and not saying he should just upset I’m on my own spinning all the plates again). He hasn’t opened any of the presents I got him (again not saying he should have - just upset by circumstances) and he’s now asleep and I don’t know what we’re supposed to be doing.
I just don’t want to be on my own anymore. And here I am at Christmas by myself again.