I can’t sleep! I was on nightshift last night and due in again tonight. Woke up at 7am yesterday morning but just can’t seem to relax, wasn’t able to sleep before shit again yesterday and now feel horrendous.
It’s a new temporary role and I want to make a good impression so keen not to phone in but I think I’ll need to.
I drove home this morning and nearly caused an accident (a minor one). I’m still a relatively new driver so my skills aren’t the best even when I’m at my best.
It’s a patient facing role so I’m worried about my ability to do drug calculations etc.
But I’m so worried about phoning in because I don’t want them to think I’m flaky and rubbish. I’ve been trying to sleep since 8am!
I’ve also got the added stress that I have a 17 month old who caused my DH nothing but stress and cried for a solid 4 hours last night and barely slept because I wasn’t home (I was particularly well rested to start with!). I’m so worried about him when I’m away at night .
Financially I need this job to work but it’s been a bad start but I’m worried if I go in I’ll mess up/not be safe and worried if I don’t go in they’ll think I’m unreliable and I’ll mess up ratios.
I’m not entirely sure what I wanted out of this post! Thanks for reading though. Last night was my first night and I’m worried it looks like I just don’t want to work. I do!