I stupidly looked at my DH’s emails and like the tale as old as time - found something I wish I hadn’t.
He has ordered an inflatable butt plug recently. There is also an indication that he ordered something else from the same website 6 months ago but the emails to confirm what it was are gone.
I’m suprised at my reaction, I thought I was quite open minded but I feel ill. I am really concerned that he is going down a road that will progress towards worse.
Our sex life is okay, he has struggled a couple of times in the past couple of months to maintain an erection, this was very unusual for him and he was upset/frustrated and said he was just overthinking it in the moment. Of course I am now linking the 2 things together and coming up with all sorts.
The worst thing is that I can’t talk to him about it. I tried to find the actual thing, if I came across it then we could have a conversation but now I’m just stewing over it.
Is he fantasising about men? ‘Training’ for something that doesn’t involve me? Or is it nothing - am I just being a closed minded prude 😬