i contacted an ex after a long time , for a benign reason as the break up was bad , he was a player who didn’t treat me well and I thought it might be helpful for my mental health
the conversation went a bit left field as I wanted to understand why he’d done some of the things he had done , but he wanted me to get back with him and said always missed me loved me etc
I did love this guy a lot so that was a difficult conversation and I explained that I’m married , never called to get back with him and that my DH knew about the conversation.
some of the stuff this guy said was really deep and he seemed depressed, he hadn’t found happiness and was lonely , I said let’s be friends and keep in touch but I’m not available and married
he’s now gone NC, which I’m not sure I wanted to do , but also think it’s the right thing
AIBU to feel sad and worried about him , and have a whole host of feelings.
the honesty from him did stir up some feelings I think
Today I cried . I know the NC is the right thing to do but I also care a lot and I’m struggling with my emotions
AIBU to feel like this