Need a hand hold -Part 3

Same 😂😂😂😂😂😂I can’t unsee it now xx

Hi @Apolloneuro , ohhh it sounds interesting I’ll have a google and see what it’s about.
How’s your day going? Have you tried any of ththe Victoria sponge you made yet? It sounds delicious I love Victoria sponge. Everybody on internet is going mad over Pete wicks trousers 😂xx

Hi @Munchyseeds2 , I’ve been waiting for your soup update . Glad it was nice , can’t wait to try the recipe. How’s the rest of your day been?
I do feel better for having a cry, I said to myself that after 12pm I wasn’t allowed to shed any more tears today and it’s worked so far.
My support worker wants to come and see the house tomorrow which is lovely and my mental health team want to come and see it this week too. They are excited for me how lovely is that?
Awww I love looking round Christmas markets and I love candles and smellies. Did you buy anything nice?
I think @Apolloneuro needs to write another email to MP re lack of spoon decorations 🤣xx

Hi @RaspberryBeretxx , I’m feeling ok now thank you , how are you feeling today?
Your day sounds like the perfect Sunday , what roast are you having?
I remember those days with washing my children’s hair 🤣🤣🤣Why is it so traumatic for them?
Worst thing was when my children had nits , they must have hated me because it’s my worst nightmare and my daughter had long hair down to the waist and I used to de-nit them every morning and night with tea tree oil . Still can’t stand the smell of that . I’m glad the nit days are over 😂
And just to let you spoonies know, you do help to take the sadness away xx

Hi @Ruralretreating , hope you’re having a lovely Sunday. I’m looking forward to watching I’m a celeb later.
It’s dark and dull here today and rainy was lovely earlier. Not looking forward to the cold blast coming this way next week.
I’ve sent email to school and I’ve been worrying that I’ve said too much on the email but I need to be honest with them and let them know what’s been going on, it’s one thing the football mums thinking I’m an awful person it’s another if the school have that opinion of me especially when I’m the one that’s been advocating all these years for my children’s education whilst ex would happily let them off school. It’s always been a battle with school and college with ex , he constantly tells my daughter that her doing criminology and law at college is a waste of time. I’m glad she’s not listened to him so far. One more sleep now this time tomorrow I’ll be in my new home xx

Hi @BeNavyCrab , how’s your weekend going? Good I hope .
Yes that’s definitely what I’m feeling today , overwhelmed and not quite believing it’s actually happening . And I definitely do feel like I don’t deserve this new home I’m just used to bad things not good things and I’ve had quite a few good things happen to me these last few weeks so it’s overwhelming.
I’m definitely trying to change my mindset about not seeing the children this week and them seeing our new home to that it just gives me time to make it nice and homely ready for when they do come. I’m not gonna let ex break me again so I’ve had my cry , dusted myself off and I’m now all ready for the big day xx

Hi @AdmittowearingCrocs , Sorry didn’t reply sooner , signal and very sore throat today . How’s your day going?
I’ve just had a nice conversation with my mum which has made me feel better. She’s being so supportive since we started speaking again, she said that her and my dad will help me get settled in and they will take me around the area to get to know it better and help me get measured up for carpets etc so that’s nice.
I was meant to see my eldest today he said he would come and see me and we could have something to eat but he went out last night and is hungover today so hopefully will see him soon.
Your right about ex realising he’s losing control , he no longer has my family to rant about me too they have all blocked him and now I’m getting my home tomorrow and no longer homeless he’ll be hating that so I know why he’s doing what he’s doing. He sees me as weak and broken he doesn’t know what I’ve gone through since he kicked me out and I’m not that person that he waved goodbye to anymore , I’ve found some strength from somewhere.
He’s using children to get to me but I shouldn’t be surprised. I know my children want to see me but he’s throwing money and promises at them at the moment to make it hard for them to do so.
Thank you for supporting me and being there it truly means a lot 🥲 .
It’s raining here this afternoon but still lots of walkers out , went outside earlier for a bit of fresh air and loads of people were about. Just going to have my last cup a soup for my tea xx

Oh I wish I could make things like that , I’m craving healthy food . Sounds delicious 😋
I know I can’t believe how fast this last week has come round , I’ll not be able to sleep tonight xx

Hi @nornironlady , glad you decided to go for a walk/run bet you feel amazing now. The photos are beautiful and looks like a lovely day despite the rain. Suns out here but is cold.
Yes got my checklist , definitely not forgetting my spoon. Just think this time in 48 hours it’s going to have a home in my kitchen . Got all knickers cleaned and packed and knockers are unfortunately coming with me too xx

Hi @Tealpoet , I know I’ve been speaking to you on messages but wanted to say hello on here too xx

Hi @spoonfulofmustard . Just to let you know I’m thinking of you too. What are you batch cooking?xx

Morning @RaspberryBeretxx , Have you any plans for today?
Thank you so much for your support and understanding, it truly means the world.
I actually don’t know what normal is anymore but I do know that I’m tired of being sad and I’m tired of crying. I’m so grateful that I have all you spoonies to lean on and just saying ‘thank you’ doesn’t do enough justice for how much it means to me.
I’m feeling ok now I’ve had a good sob and texted my children that I love and miss them and I’m back to focusing on the big day tomorrow.
Deep down I know I did the right thing by leaving (not that I had a choice), if I had stayed well I’m not sure I would still be here. The hatefulness and viciousness of what he did and said the last few months was more than I could handle . When I think back to things he’s done like throwing my cancer and mental health medication away just to spite me I mean who does that? Or leaving viagra out for me to find and condom packets with some missing on the day I found out they was stopping my treatment is just hateful on another level. So yeah I know it was the right thing to do but was also the hardest especially leaving without my children .
I’ve heard about that book I’m definitely going to read it . Thank you @RaspberryBeretxx