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Imbluedalale · 2024-11-02T21:41:55+00:00

Hi it’s Laura , Just wanted to add a new thread as I think my other thread is getting full xx

spoonfulofmustard · 03/11/2024 20:30

Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:25

I love that song and I love hold on by Wilson Philips. I do have a ‘heartbreak and survive’ playlist
My favourite songs are :
I can do it with a broken heart by Taylor Swift
Better man by Little Big Town
Chasing Lights by The Saturdays
Stop and stare by One Republic
Mine by Kelly Clarkson
You made me by Kelsey Lamb (my favourite) The lyrics really resonate with me :

You made me doubt myself
You made me come undone
You made me question everything
That I thought love was
You made me go crazy
But you made me
Pick up all the pieces
That you left me broken with
Said I couldn't live without you
But it's looking like I did
Took the long way around
But I'm better off without you lately
Loving the woman you made me
You made me walk away
You made me slam the door
But you made this heart
A little stronger than it was before
I picked up all the pieces that you left me broken with
Said I couldn't live without you but it's looking like I did
Took the long way around
But I'm better off without you lately
Loving the woman
That I guess you couldn't handle
That you said I'd never be
The one I never knew cause you were busy keeping her from me
Took the long way around
But I'm better off without you lately
Loving the woman you made me
The woman you made me

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the pure strength in that song (I love a bit of country) you got this girl xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:25

spoonfulofmustard · 03/11/2024 17:44

bit of a random one but just watching a you tube playlist and Defying Gravity has come on, I used to listen to this and Wilson Philips on repeat when psyching myself up to leave my ex. Find the music that empowers you, and maybe makes you cry a bit in a positive way. but God just remembering how low I was when I played this and i really feel it now xx if all else fails watch the Mariah Carey video on insta 😂 sending love and hugs

I love that song and I love hold on by Wilson Philips. I do have a ‘heartbreak and survive’ playlist
My favourite songs are :
I can do it with a broken heart by Taylor Swift
Better man by Little Big Town
Chasing Lights by The Saturdays
Stop and stare by One Republic
Mine by Kelly Clarkson
You made me by Kelsey Lamb (my favourite) The lyrics really resonate with me :

You made me doubt myself
You made me come undone
You made me question everything
That I thought love was
You made me go crazy
But you made me
Pick up all the pieces
That you left me broken with
Said I couldn't live without you
But it's looking like I did
Took the long way around
But I'm better off without you lately
Loving the woman you made me
You made me walk away
You made me slam the door
But you made this heart
A little stronger than it was before
I picked up all the pieces that you left me broken with
Said I couldn't live without you but it's looking like I did
Took the long way around
But I'm better off without you lately
Loving the woman
That I guess you couldn't handle
That you said I'd never be
The one I never knew cause you were busy keeping her from me
Took the long way around
But I'm better off without you lately
Loving the woman you made me
The woman you made me

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:09

TealPoet · 03/11/2024 17:30

This! This so much! So proud of you 😍

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Thank you 🙏❤️xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:09

PeggyMitchellsCameo · 03/11/2024 17:15

Every step is one forward and nearer to the future you are building. Think of how far you’ve come in a week! Xx

Your so right @PeggyMitchellsCameo I have come far in a week but that’s all down to you on here . You’ve all helped me massively more than you’ll ever know . You helped guide me where to walk , I’m so truly grateful xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:07

TealPoet · 03/11/2024 17:02

Big big hugs. I’m so glad you had some time with your beautiful daughter. I’m so sorry about your sister, but when you have a new home start a new collection and let it remind you how strong you are and that you may be starting over, but you’re winning! Maybe you can collect decorative spoons and we can have fun looking for special ones for you! With of course your wooden spoon of courage being the OG 💕

Thank you @TealPoet and thank you for the hugs they are always much appreciated 🙏
I hope you’re ok today and that you have had a nice day?
They actually exist. Spoon baubles! I really want a spoon tree now, how amazing would that be to start my new life?xx

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Munchyseeds2 · 03/11/2024 20:05

I'm glad you had a lovely time with your daughter, much needed x

Your sister?? I have no words!! Why would she do that?
Don't give it head room lovely, it's not worth it

It's v true that you can choose your friends.....
Xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:01

nornironlady · 03/11/2024 17:00

Oh Laura I'm gutted to hear about your baubles. I too am a collector and I can't stop at one every year! Building a new collection means new happier memories I hope. I feel great after the run. The stamina came from somewhere deeply hidden inside. I will definitely need to do some stretching this evening. I'm over the moon to hear about your visit with your daughter. The first of many I hope.

Sorry @nornironlady my battery went again and charger is playing up. I will have to get a new one tomorrow!
I love baubles too and your very right about starting a new collection , I might even go for a complete different colour scheme to what I had before. Just can’t understand why my sister would do that when she was the one that suggested I keep it at hers for safety .
I’m glad you feel good after your run , I’m sure you’ll sleep tonight after that .
I feel over the moon too for seeing her , I keep looking at the pictures I took of her . My little princess xx

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RaspberryBeretxx · 03/11/2024 19:32

That sounds so lovely with your daughter, a Laura and such a good milestone ❤️.

im so sorry about your baubles , I really get that, it can be such a ritual and so many memories 🥰. Do you have pics of previous trees? Maybe you can build the collection back up and that be your special new home new life thing? I take DC and we choose one new special bauble each year that we love.

I had to leave everything when I left my ex and still feel a horrible pang when I think about the beautiful bookcase my uncle hand made me for my 21 birthday 😔. But it gets easier, I promise and sometimes you can make it more about the memories that can never leave and less about the actual things. I try and just appreciate the thought and care from my uncle and not the actual book case. But for how I think just allow yourself to feel sad about them.

Hope you can sleep well tonight and that you can see all your children soon. 🌺💕

Ruralretreating · 03/11/2024 18:19

Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 14:38

Hi @Ruralretreating are you ok?
I’ve just received the best news! My daughter is currently at the bus stop on her way to see me! I can’t wait to see her and hold her. My youngest was going to come too but he said he doesn’t feel too good and is really tired after his game so I’ve told him to get into bed , he said he feels bad but I told him not to and he must rest if he’s not feeling well. I really wanted to see him too but I don’t want him to be poorly. I’ve just tried to make myself as presentable as can be but I will be honest I don’t look great. I’ve got huge bags under my eyes and because my hair has been falling out I’ve got all stray bits at the front but I can’t wait to see her and smell her! lol oh I’m so excited xx

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That is so great! What a boost to know they independently want to see you and will make the effort to do so! Hold on to that as a reminder that you are a good Mum, even more so for telling your son to rest despite the fact you want to see him so much.

Thanks for asking how I am, I do appreciate it. I had a nice afternoon, a visit from an old and dear friend and his daughter. My SEN child is being a bit of a handful though, and I’m struggling with some of the personal stuff (weekends are particularly difficult) but have had lovely support on that from another friend which has fortified me a bit. Miss my late father at this time of year too.

spoonfulofmustard · 03/11/2024 18:12

PeggyMitchellsCameo · 03/11/2024 18:12

Hold On by Wilson Philips? I still love it now, really inspirational ✔️

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yep! love that song so much!

PeggyMitchellsCameo · 03/11/2024 18:12

spoonfulofmustard · 03/11/2024 17:44

bit of a random one but just watching a you tube playlist and Defying Gravity has come on, I used to listen to this and Wilson Philips on repeat when psyching myself up to leave my ex. Find the music that empowers you, and maybe makes you cry a bit in a positive way. but God just remembering how low I was when I played this and i really feel it now xx if all else fails watch the Mariah Carey video on insta 😂 sending love and hugs

Hold On by Wilson Philips? I still love it now, really inspirational ✔️

spoonfulofmustard · 03/11/2024 17:44

bit of a random one but just watching a you tube playlist and Defying Gravity has come on, I used to listen to this and Wilson Philips on repeat when psyching myself up to leave my ex. Find the music that empowers you, and maybe makes you cry a bit in a positive way. but God just remembering how low I was when I played this and i really feel it now xx if all else fails watch the Mariah Carey video on insta 😂 sending love and hugs

TealPoet · 03/11/2024 17:30

PeggyMitchellsCameo · 03/11/2024 17:15

Every step is one forward and nearer to the future you are building. Think of how far you’ve come in a week! Xx

This! This so much! So proud of you 😍

PeggyMitchellsCameo · 03/11/2024 17:15

Every step is one forward and nearer to the future you are building. Think of how far you’ve come in a week! Xx

spoonfulofmustard · 03/11/2024 17:04

TealPoet · 03/11/2024 17:02

Big big hugs. I’m so glad you had some time with your beautiful daughter. I’m so sorry about your sister, but when you have a new home start a new collection and let it remind you how strong you are and that you may be starting over, but you’re winning! Maybe you can collect decorative spoons and we can have fun looking for special ones for you! With of course your wooden spoon of courage being the OG 💕

I love the idea of a tree full of decorative spoons!!

TealPoet · 03/11/2024 17:02

Big big hugs. I’m so glad you had some time with your beautiful daughter. I’m so sorry about your sister, but when you have a new home start a new collection and let it remind you how strong you are and that you may be starting over, but you’re winning! Maybe you can collect decorative spoons and we can have fun looking for special ones for you! With of course your wooden spoon of courage being the OG 💕

nornironlady · 03/11/2024 17:00

Oh Laura I'm gutted to hear about your baubles. I too am a collector and I can't stop at one every year! Building a new collection means new happier memories I hope. I feel great after the run. The stamina came from somewhere deeply hidden inside. I will definitely need to do some stretching this evening. I'm over the moon to hear about your visit with your daughter. The first of many I hope.

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 16:41

nornironlady · 03/11/2024 15:39

I'm great thanks. Thinking about you and how restricted you are right now forced me to get myself out for a walk to the forest. It's a ten minute walk from me and I had a run which I've not done in a long time. So thank you Laura for both humbling and inspiring me to get out be grateful for all I have. Sorry to hear about the dreams. That must be unsettling but as another poster said you are probably processing a lot of trauma. Remembere you are loved and you matter to many of us ♥️

I’m glad you’re good @nornironlady . Your walk (and run) to the forest sounds amazing. How do you feel after it? I love nature I bet it was lovely. At my old home there was a lovely walking trail past fields and farms and loads of trees I used to walk there often and there was sheep and horses too it was lovely. I’m glad you got out in the fresh air .
Ive just seen my daughter which was lovely , kept taking pictures of her lol 😂. God I love her and the boys so much .
Yes the dreams aren’t very nice but if they help me in the long run to process everything then I can put up with them . It’s strange because even though I’ve been homeless for over a month now I still wake up each time and for a split second I forget where I am and then realise and it takes my breath away each and every time. It’s the shock of reality u guess.
Im so pleased to have seen my daughter but she did make a comment about my sister offering to fetch ex my bag of baubles my sister has there. Long story short but before I left I wanted to take my bag of Christmas baubles because it has taken me years to build my collection up and I treat myself every year to some nice new ones to add to it and I even got a bauble storage bag to put them all in. My sister suggested I keep it at hers until I get a home. I never took nothing else even though most of the furniture I bought , I didn’t want it just my baubles and now I’m not going to have them . I know it’s silly and they are just baubles but it was something that was mine you know . Anyway I’ll get over it and start a new collection just hurts my sister would do that when she already knows I have nothing xx

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spoonfulofmustard · 03/11/2024 16:38

what a lovely update! you deserve that boost xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 16:30

My daughter has gone now . It was absolutely lovely to see her and to hold her. I did get a-bit teary eyed though. She looked so beautiful and she smelt amazing. We both wasn’t hungry so we had a drink and shared a bowl of chips. It was lovely catching up with her and she said the boys are ok too. She was telling me about college and work. I kept wanting to touch her arm and hand just to be near her . She also brought me some snacks bless her. I miss her already but it has given me a boost seeing her. It was hard too though I’m not gonna lie xx

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Itiswhysofew · 03/11/2024 15:46

Brilliant news.

nornironlady · 03/11/2024 15:41

Enjoy your time with your daughter. Lovely news xx

nornironlady · 03/11/2024 15:39

I'm great thanks. Thinking about you and how restricted you are right now forced me to get myself out for a walk to the forest. It's a ten minute walk from me and I had a run which I've not done in a long time. So thank you Laura for both humbling and inspiring me to get out be grateful for all I have. Sorry to hear about the dreams. That must be unsettling but as another poster said you are probably processing a lot of trauma. Remembere you are loved and you matter to many of us ♥️

PeggyMitchellsCameo · 03/11/2024 15:39

Yay for the visit!!!! X

Munchyseeds2 · 03/11/2024 15:24

Thats a lovely surprise!! Xx