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Imbluedalale · 2024-11-02T21:41:55+00:00

Hi it’s Laura , Just wanted to add a new thread as I think my other thread is getting full xx

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Imbluedalale · 04/11/2024 00:31

itsmylife7 · 04/11/2024 00:28

Hopefully you're fast asleep now.

Just read about your daughter visiting you.

What a lovely surprise.

Hope your hospital appointment is a good one for you.

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Hi @itsmylife7 I’m not asleep unfortunately I can’t switch off tonight . Heads whirring constantly.
I hope you have had a lovely weekend?
It really was a lovely surprise , was lovely to see her Xx

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itsmylife7 · 04/11/2024 00:28

Hopefully you're fast asleep now.

Just read about your daughter visiting you.

What a lovely surprise.

Hope your hospital appointment is a good one for you.

🙂

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 23:49

Apolloneuro · 03/11/2024 23:47

What you’ve brought to us Laura, is a little corner of mumsnet where a group of people, who’ve never met, care about each other. That’s special.

You’re right @Apolloneuro . I’m so glad I’ve found you all and we have all found each other . And I care about every single one of you, no amount of money in the world is worth this . It’s very special . Big hugs to you all xx

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Apolloneuro · 03/11/2024 23:47

What you’ve brought to us Laura, is a little corner of mumsnet where a group of people, who’ve never met, care about each other. That’s special.

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 22:52

Ruralretreating · 03/11/2024 22:36

Thanks Laura. I was thinking of you today and taking some inspiration from your determination. I appreciate the offer of chatting too.

Fireworks night was always a time I really loved as a child, and used to do a special thing with my father, so it hits me every year (over 15 years now), and comes shortly after the anniversary of his passing in October. Sadly I’m nowhere near as good a parent as my father was. He never lost patience, I lose it daily.

I’m so glad the visit from your daughter went well. That news has made me so happy. You haven’t lost them, remember that. This week really has been a rollercoaster but I am so happy you and spoon still with us and making progress.

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Thank you Ruralretreating,
You know what my emotions are all over the place at the moment. I am so so glad that I have seen my daughter today but it has made me feel sad too. And it’s made me miss my children even more. God what’s wrong with me?
I’m always here to talk to, sending you huge hugs xx
I can imagine it’s a difficult time of year , special occasions are always hard .
Your father sounds like a wonderful man and don’t put yourself down, we all lose patience. I sit here daily and think of the times I didn’t have patience with my children and wishing I could take it back and feeling immense guilt if I could turn back time I would but I can’t, nobody can. Don’t beat yourself up about it , you’re an amazing mum ok, never forget that xx

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Ruralretreating · 03/11/2024 22:36

Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:45

Isn’t it @Ruralretreating I was so happy to see her . My son texted me earlier and said he feels guilty and he wishes he had seen me but I told him not to feel guilty if your poorly you need to rest . I wish I was able to look after him , I hate the thought of him being under the weather and I’m not there.
Your visit from your friend sounds wonderful and I’m sorry to hear your having struggles. You sound like a wonderful parent.
Im so sorry to hear your missing your father, I can’t imagine how hard that is. I’m always here if you want to talk/vent. Thinking of you xx

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Thanks Laura. I was thinking of you today and taking some inspiration from your determination. I appreciate the offer of chatting too.

Fireworks night was always a time I really loved as a child, and used to do a special thing with my father, so it hits me every year (over 15 years now), and comes shortly after the anniversary of his passing in October. Sadly I’m nowhere near as good a parent as my father was. He never lost patience, I lose it daily.

I’m so glad the visit from your daughter went well. That news has made me so happy. You haven’t lost them, remember that. This week really has been a rollercoaster but I am so happy you and spoon still with us and making progress.

Ruralretreating · 03/11/2024 22:21

Sorry to hear you are poorly @Apolloneuro. Look after yourself and keep us posted.

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 22:20

Apolloneuro · 03/11/2024 22:12

Oh don’t worry about me lovely. I’ve got a brilliant doctor surgery and it hasn’t happened again.

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Well please keep an eye on it and if it happens again ring your doctor. I hope you manage to rest tonight xx

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Apolloneuro · 03/11/2024 22:12

Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 21:31

Me too @Apolloneuro please call GP in morning . I’m worried about you xx

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Oh don’t worry about me lovely. I’ve got a brilliant doctor surgery and it hasn’t happened again.

Munchyseeds2 · 03/11/2024 21:36

Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:56

Thank you @Munchyseeds2 it was the best surprise ever. And it was lovely not only getting a real cuddle but a cuddle from my daughter . It meant everything.
I really don’t know why my sister did that, we havnt spoken since she told my ex where I was. And I’m unsure why she wants brownie points from him and I am upset about it but nothing surprises me anymore . I’m going to get over it and move on xx

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Go lovely!!.....
You know what? You really are AMAZING xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 21:31

Munchyseeds2 · 03/11/2024 21:19

@Apolloneuro it does sound like you need to get back on to the GP tomorrow, peeing blood is never a good sign
Hope you feel better soon

Me too @Apolloneuro please call GP in morning . I’m worried about you xx

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Munchyseeds2 · 03/11/2024 21:19

@Apolloneuro it does sound like you need to get back on to the GP tomorrow, peeing blood is never a good sign
Hope you feel better soon

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 21:10

Apolloneuro · 03/11/2024 20:56

I’m not feeling all that well. I get a lot of cystitis and needed antibiotics from doc on Thursday. Passed extremely blood stained wee this morning. Might have to phone doc again tomorrow. Also have a headache and sore throat and the last I had that it ended up being really nasty Covid.

Awww @Apolloneuro you are really going through it aren’t you . Bless you.
I absolutely hate cystitis it’s horrid , please make sure you phone the doctor in the morning though , having blood in your wee sounds worrying .
Have you got any Covid tests you can do?I really hope it’s not Covid and you start to feel better soon xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 21:07

ChoccieCornflake · 03/11/2024 20:54

Hello! That's fabulous that you've seen your daughter!!! That must have given you such a boost! As to your sister and the baubles - that is outrageous!! I love that you are already planning a new collection though - and the spoons!!

I have had a very lazy day! A small bit of tidying the garden (which looked like it had been left to its own devices for months - which it pretty much had), and then a great deal of watching TV on the sofa. I wouldn't want the sofa to get lonely! 😀

Hi @ChoccieCornflake , it’s brilliant news isn’t it . It’s honestly made my day . To say that my week started horribly it turned out better than I could have imagined. I’ve got a safe roof over my head and I’ve seen my daughter.
Your day sounds lovely, do a job and then rest . Sounds like my cup of tea. I hope you had some biscuits too xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 21:03

Apolloneuro · 03/11/2024 20:51

Omg your news about your daughter has absolutely made my day. Your patience is paying off. I’m soooooo bloody happy for you. Xxx

Awwww that is so lovely , thank you so much @Apolloneuro .
Im still in shock about seeing her and holding her it was a lovely surprise. And it was lovely to talk about normal stuff with her xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 21:00

PeggyMitchellsCameo · 03/11/2024 20:36

I am not posh but my mum was and loved her Harrods baubles. Just spotted this… it has spoons!

Oh that is beautiful ❤️
I would love to go to Harrods and pick a bauble xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:58

spoonfulofmustard · 03/11/2024 20:30

the pure strength in that song (I love a bit of country) you got this girl xx

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Thank you @spoonfulofmustard its a beautiful song and when I get my house I’m going to listen to it and say to myself , he cracked me but he didn’t break me xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:56

Munchyseeds2 · 03/11/2024 20:05

I'm glad you had a lovely time with your daughter, much needed x

Your sister?? I have no words!! Why would she do that?
Don't give it head room lovely, it's not worth it

It's v true that you can choose your friends.....
Xx

Thank you @Munchyseeds2 it was the best surprise ever. And it was lovely not only getting a real cuddle but a cuddle from my daughter . It meant everything.
I really don’t know why my sister did that, we havnt spoken since she told my ex where I was. And I’m unsure why she wants brownie points from him and I am upset about it but nothing surprises me anymore . I’m going to get over it and move on xx

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Apolloneuro · 03/11/2024 20:56

I’m not feeling all that well. I get a lot of cystitis and needed antibiotics from doc on Thursday. Passed extremely blood stained wee this morning. Might have to phone doc again tomorrow. Also have a headache and sore throat and the last I had that it ended up being really nasty Covid.

ChoccieCornflake · 03/11/2024 20:54

Hello! That's fabulous that you've seen your daughter!!! That must have given you such a boost! As to your sister and the baubles - that is outrageous!! I love that you are already planning a new collection though - and the spoons!!

I have had a very lazy day! A small bit of tidying the garden (which looked like it had been left to its own devices for months - which it pretty much had), and then a great deal of watching TV on the sofa. I wouldn't want the sofa to get lonely! 😀

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:52

RaspberryBeretxx · 03/11/2024 19:32

That sounds so lovely with your daughter, a Laura and such a good milestone ❤️.

im so sorry about your baubles , I really get that, it can be such a ritual and so many memories 🥰. Do you have pics of previous trees? Maybe you can build the collection back up and that be your special new home new life thing? I take DC and we choose one new special bauble each year that we love.

I had to leave everything when I left my ex and still feel a horrible pang when I think about the beautiful bookcase my uncle hand made me for my 21 birthday 😔. But it gets easier, I promise and sometimes you can make it more about the memories that can never leave and less about the actual things. I try and just appreciate the thought and care from my uncle and not the actual book case. But for how I think just allow yourself to feel sad about them.

Hope you can sleep well tonight and that you can see all your children soon. 🌺💕

Hi @RaspberryBeretxx
Thank you , it really was lovely and made my day.
I do have pictures of what my tree looked like but I’ve decided because I now have to start again I’m going to go for something different. New look, new me. I really want a spoon tree now lol 😂
I love that you make it a special occasion each year and take your DC for a new bauble , that is lovely.
I’m sorry you had to leave everything too, your bookcase really does sound beautiful, I bet it was heartbreaking leaving that. I’m sorry 😞
I know I keep telling myself they are just material things and they can be replaced. I did love them though and was proud of my collection.
I hope you’ve had a lovely day and sleep well too xx

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Apolloneuro · 03/11/2024 20:51

Omg your news about your daughter has absolutely made my day. Your patience is paying off. I’m soooooo bloody happy for you. Xxx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:45

Ruralretreating · 03/11/2024 18:19

That is so great! What a boost to know they independently want to see you and will make the effort to do so! Hold on to that as a reminder that you are a good Mum, even more so for telling your son to rest despite the fact you want to see him so much.

Thanks for asking how I am, I do appreciate it. I had a nice afternoon, a visit from an old and dear friend and his daughter. My SEN child is being a bit of a handful though, and I’m struggling with some of the personal stuff (weekends are particularly difficult) but have had lovely support on that from another friend which has fortified me a bit. Miss my late father at this time of year too.

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Isn’t it @Ruralretreating I was so happy to see her . My son texted me earlier and said he feels guilty and he wishes he had seen me but I told him not to feel guilty if your poorly you need to rest . I wish I was able to look after him , I hate the thought of him being under the weather and I’m not there.
Your visit from your friend sounds wonderful and I’m sorry to hear your having struggles. You sound like a wonderful parent.
Im so sorry to hear your missing your father, I can’t imagine how hard that is. I’m always here if you want to talk/vent. Thinking of you xx

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Imbluedalale · 03/11/2024 20:39

AdmittowearingCrocs · 03/11/2024 15:15

How lovely for you Laura, such a fabulous surprise. Enjoy every minute with her, take some photos to treasure and give her lots of hugs 😀

Thank you @AdmittowearingCrocs
It was a lovely surprise, I took lots of photos of her and gave her lots of cuddles . I miss her already xx

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PeggyMitchellsCameo · 03/11/2024 20:36

I am not posh but my mum was and loved her Harrods baubles. Just spotted this… it has spoons!