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Please talk me down I am going to lose my shit

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Icantpeopleanymore · 01/11/2024 13:19

Two SEN kids.

Half term with no break.

I'm a teacher so back on Monday and have a massive list to get through before then.

DD is out of school with EBSA, she won't do anything today, barely washed, just started sobbing as she's too tired and I asked her to take her cups and plates out of her room.

Just managed to get DS off YouTube and doing some Lego, he's having a meltdown because he hasn't got enough brown bricks to build the exact tree he wants to. So YouTube is back on.

I'm so depressed and tired and frustrated and fed up.

The house is a fucking tip and I've got a million DIY jobs to finish and it's all just too overwhelming and even the cat is doing my head in because I honestly think she's got ADHD and is autistic too because she don't stop jumping all over me when I'm trying to sit down for two bloody minutes peace.

Trying to deep breathe but I'm seriously going to lose my shit. Even though it's not their fault and they can't help it. So now I feel guilty too.

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Icantpeopleanymore · 01/11/2024 13:37

lonelyweather · 01/11/2024 13:28

My sympathies, OP, that sounds really tough. Half term for the kids but you get no time off at all. Agree with pp that staying calm is an achievement. Do you have a garden? Can you spend a few minutes outside? That always helps me reset. Some days are just really hard and you have to wait for them to pass. If you can get a few moments of breathing and relaxation in then that is a huge win.

I do. It's a mess and I hate looking at it because I just can't keep on top of it. Paddling pool is still up from the summer. I used to run and I loved it, mainly because they can't chase me. But I get no time without them now and if I do there's always so much to do at home that I don't go, plus I'm so exhausted and fat and out of shape now. I need to try to get into it again, it really helped.

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LittleRedRidingHoody · 01/11/2024 13:37

Oh OP this sounds so tough 💐

Don't lose your shit. It sounds like you're an incredible mother and your kids are lucky to have you, even if they don't understand that yet 😂 Can you meet DD halfway and ask her to pop the bits outside her door for you to run down? The 'SEN is bad behaviour' mob would be outraged but it may cause less hassle and she's contributing a bit! Hang on, you can make it to the weekend. I'm rooting for you!

Mumteedum · 01/11/2024 13:36

I get it. Single mum to sen child and half term juggling here too. I'm a lecturer and it's all deadlines just now. Feeling stressed from all angles.

Trying to just relax about things as best I can. We're doing our best. Flowers

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Icantpeopleanymore · 01/11/2024 13:33

GertrudePerkinsPaperyThing · 01/11/2024 13:22

Sounds really tough Op.

This won’t help with the practicalities, or your dd not going to school, but I sometimes have to think of staying calm as an achievement/ end in itself. So literally forget everything else and make a cup of tea (other beverages are available) and sit down.

Get a takeaway for dinner if you can afford it.

Let the kids sit on their devices and tackle some clearing up when you’re ready.

Thanks. Yep, having a few minutes to myself is helping.
I'm going to have a coffee, make dome lunch, put a podcast on and start again.

I get a break this weekend when they're with their dad, I know I'll get fallout from the weekend as they're going to stay with him and his girlfriend for the first time and it's all new, so they'll mask it all until they're home, so I need to get some strength for that.

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Icantpeopleanymore · 01/11/2024 13:31

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Part of me feels that way but it's really not helpful. She's autistic and has Ehlers-danlos, we had a busy day yesterday and that makes her completely exhausted the next day or sometimes up to a week. She can't function. DS struggles with perfectionism. He knows what he wants to achieve but if it doesn't work he loses it. Same as DD, exhausted after a busy people filled day yesterday.

They can't function at school, DS barely keeps it together and then he loses it at home because he's masking. DD cannot function at school. She's not been in over a month.

I worry enough about what their futures look like thank you. Which is why I'm completely overwhelmed and I'm losing all hope, because they depend on me for everything. But thanks for the helpful input.

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lonelyweather · 01/11/2024 13:28

My sympathies, OP, that sounds really tough. Half term for the kids but you get no time off at all. Agree with pp that staying calm is an achievement. Do you have a garden? Can you spend a few minutes outside? That always helps me reset. Some days are just really hard and you have to wait for them to pass. If you can get a few moments of breathing and relaxation in then that is a huge win.

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GertrudePerkinsPaperyThing · 01/11/2024 13:22

Sounds really tough Op.

This won’t help with the practicalities, or your dd not going to school, but I sometimes have to think of staying calm as an achievement/ end in itself. So literally forget everything else and make a cup of tea (other beverages are available) and sit down.

Get a takeaway for dinner if you can afford it.

Let the kids sit on their devices and tackle some clearing up when you’re ready.

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