I'm currently at home and Mum to a 1 year old, DH has his own business.
He leaves the house by 6am and is home around 6pm Mon-Fri and probably works 1 Saturday a month. By the time he gets home, 1 year old is ready for bath time and bed.
I do every meal time, every bath time, every bed time.
DH has a hobby that he goes to 2 nights a week, he then does this hobby every other weekend too, writing a Sunday off completely.
I'm solely in charge or all house work, laundry, grocery shopping, life admin, keeping a 1 year old happy/healthy/safe and I feel like I'm going to explode.
I feel so down tonight, I told him I feel this way and asked if he can skip his hobby tonight to spend time together, he said it's his way to "de stress". I said that he puts it before me, before us. So now he hasn't gone, but he's just sat on the sofa on his phone so I feel like what's the point? He might as well have gone.
I've tried to explain that when I'm struggling with tiredness/feeling down (I do have depression) I want him to WANT to be with me, to give me a cuddle and take it upon himself to say "I'm not going, I know you need me right now".
I'm seriously beginning to think what is the point?! It's even crossed my mind that if I left him, at least I'd get every other weekend to myself (he is a great Dad).
I don't even know why I'm writing this I'm just so fed up and feel so alone.