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Need a hand hold

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Imbluedalale · 17/10/2024 23:39

That’s just it really. I really need a cuddle but that’s not possible so can anybody just support me right now? My mental health is on the floor right now I’ve never felt as low it’s making me feel so ill

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sarahzbaker · 18/10/2024 00:18

Oh Dear oh dear
You are in our hearts
Try to battle through
My ex - though I still love her. has stage 4 breast cancer. is doing very well
They have said she can go on to three monthly checks
as the pills to restrain it are doing well

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Imbluedalale · 18/10/2024 00:16

ChoccieCornflake · 18/10/2024 00:09

You are not a failure! You have been through absolute hell and you're still holding on! You will get through tonight, even if it's minute to minute, and tomorrow you have people to look after you. Of course it's OK to want some strength - if I could share some over the Internet I totally would. You got this, even if it doesn't feel like it.

Thank you , I’m not a bad person or I didn’t think I was but I must be to get all this . I literally have nobody anymore I don’t even know if I’ll see my kids again I think ex is going to take me to court and try and stop contact

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ChoccieCornflake · 18/10/2024 00:09

You are not a failure! You have been through absolute hell and you're still holding on! You will get through tonight, even if it's minute to minute, and tomorrow you have people to look after you. Of course it's OK to want some strength - if I could share some over the Internet I totally would. You got this, even if it doesn't feel like it.

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Imbluedalale · 18/10/2024 00:03

ChoccieCornflake · 17/10/2024 23:57

Oh my word you poor thing - what an absolute load of shit you have been through!! Big big hugs from me

Thank you . Anyway the psychiatrist and my mental health team and home treatment team have recommended me going with them for a while to a house which offers 24/7 support for a while so I’m going there tomorrow but right now I’m having another bad panic attack and I have reached out because I’m desperately missing my kids and I don’t want another night of feeling like an utter and complete failure . I just need some strength right now if that’s ok?

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ChoccieCornflake · 17/10/2024 23:57

Oh my word you poor thing - what an absolute load of shit you have been through!! Big big hugs from me

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Imbluedalale · 17/10/2024 23:54

Ratfinkstinkypink · 17/10/2024 23:45

Offering a hand. Do you want to talk about it?

Thank you . I have posted about it before but then I got worried my ex had found it so asked for it to be deleted. I don’t even know where to start so I’ll just explain as much as I can :
I suffer with severe anxiety and depression and tried to take my life last year spent 7 weeks in hospital and was on medication
This February I got cancer and have been quite unwell this year and had 7 admissions to hospital last one being for 3 weeks
Split up with partner of 15 years recently (DV, emotional abuse , him finding someone else )
Was having cancer treatment but on 1st cycle got too poorly , firstly had colitis then was hospitalised for 3 weeks with paralysis of right side due to toxins of cancer treatment so my testament has been stopped
Didn’t speak to my partner whilst in hospital and when I got discharged had to get a taxi home and next day he told me he wanted me out
Was made homeless last Tuesday so been living in hotel provided for by council
As children not classed as homeless they staying with ex partner until I find somewhere having seen them for 9 days and desperately missing them
Eldest son hates me he called me a cunt and laughed when he found out I was going to be homeless
Relationship with daughter strained at moment every time we text we argue
All the stress has made me feel so poorly having really bad panic attacks and dry retching and can’t sleep
Psychiatrist and mental health team came to see me today in my hotel room
Juat really really need a cuddle

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TashaTudor · 17/10/2024 23:47

Big hugs

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Ruralretreating · 17/10/2024 23:47

Here too. Sending hugs.

teddybeartown · 17/10/2024 23:46

Here if you need someone to DM OP!

TashaTudor · 17/10/2024 23:46

Hi, anything in particularly or just general shittiness?

I'm here if you want to talk.

ChoccieCornflake · 17/10/2024 23:46

Big hugs!!

Ratfinkstinkypink · 17/10/2024 23:45

Offering a hand. Do you want to talk about it?