Need a hand hold

Hi spoonfulofmustard,
Nice to meet you . I love the name Ava, what a beautiful name.
Im so sorry to hear you went through something similar, your friends sound absolutely amazing and I’m so glad you had some support during those difficult times. I can completely understand when they try and discredit you. I didn’t even take that into consideration before I was kicked out but wow he has completely made me out to be an absolute monster and sadly people believe it . I just hope that one day they will sit back and think ‘hang on a minute , why would she leave the home where her children are when she has been so poorly and just came out of hospital and is partially paralysed, why would she leave her children and make herself homeless? Or they may just think I’m a terrible excuse for a human being and a terrible mother forever . I’m trying to not let it affect me and keep telling myself ‘if you can’t change a situation, change how you feel about it’ and I feel angry at times but I’m coming to realise that anger is a wasted emotion.
You sound like an absolute warrior and you give me faith that things will get better , thank you xx

Thank you Itiswhysofew,
@ChoccieCornflake is so lovely isn’t she.
I’ve still got my bubbles in me and a few escape now and again, I just need a bubble wand to blow the rest out xx

Hi spoonfulofmustard,
They are amazing women aren’t they , I feel truly blessed to have received so much support and I will be forever thankful to each and every one of them .
Thank you so much for reading my thread I feel honoured . Winston Churchill once said ‘If you’re going through hell, keep going’. xx

In my eyes ALL biscuits are too small lol 😂
I wonder if they made giant ones of them all if they would be so popular?
When I was on slimming world I used to get two digestives and put jam and Philadelphia on them and put them together and it tasted like cheesecake xx

Hi ChoccieCornflake,
I hope you’ve had a nice day relaxing, I love pj days (too much really) . I always seem to eat more when I’ve got my pjs on though lol 😂
Awww you’re so kind @ChoccieCornflake you really are. You know how to lift a person up when they are feeling down.
I haven’t tried the other flavours of Jaffa cakes , I don’t fancy any but the original flavour tbh , I read an article where somebody tried all the different varieties and they said the cola bottle flavour ones tasted like bad cough sweets! xx

Thank you Itiswhysofew
It’s a huge relief!
Thank you for your lovely words and the MN’s have been amazing, I’ve got a place to stay because of them and I feel safe. I’m so thankful 🙏
I hope you have a lovely weekend xx

Thank you RaspberryBeretxx,
Im just eating my cornflakes now with a cup of tea.
I saw the biggest swan earlier, was watching it for ages. It seemed so happy just swimming along on its own.
I know my children miss me especially my youngest. He said the other day ‘I just want my family back’ and it broke me. At the moment because of what ex has told everybody people think I’ve just left and left my children so everybody thinks he’s amazing but I’ve come to terms with that now , I keep telling myself ‘don’t get bitter, get better’ . And also I keep saying this to myself ‘the people that mind don’t matter and the people that matter don’t mind’ xx

Hi Munchyseeds2,
It’s relaxing looking at them isn’t it. There’s a calmness about them. I think it’s a 2 mile walk around this lake. I do see a lot of walkers.
I would hate for my ex to know the situations I’ve been in since he kicked me out and I want to say I’d want him to know when I’ve got a house and I’m all settled but I hope by then I’ll be past caring what he thinks. I don’t want to look at him let alone speak to him. I had a phase last week of missing him but what I miss is an illusion and it’s not true life. It’s really weird because I had some photos of him which I didn’t delete because the children are in them and he looks dead between the eyes, I know that sounds strange to say but that was my first thought when I looked back at them and now I can’t unsee it.
I’m petrified of when it goes to court , I really hope I’m stronger by then. He will walk in with his sharp suit on and I’ll go in looking tired and unkempt.
Thank you for your kind words @Munchyseeds2 xx

I love boiled eggs , I especially love egg and soldiers. Oh and I love sausages! I could eat a sausage sandwich right now.
Oh I have all those apps I didn’t know they do supermarkets. Thank you for letting me know xx

You’re right, it is hard and it is cruel but I wouldn’t expect anything less from him tbh . He made me homeless knowing how poorly I was and partially paralysed. That was the point I know how much he really hated me.
I miss my children more than I ever thought possible but what keeps me going when I think of them is knowing they are ok . I would give anything to be with them but that’s not possible right now xx

Morning Munchyseeds2,
How are you this morning?
I’m just having a cup of tea with my breakfast. Eating my croissant and will save the rest for my lunch.
The view is lovely again , abit cloudy today but you can sit and listen to the birds xx

Awww that’s so lovely , thank you for thinking of me . That’s so sweet.
I don’t have a fridge in my room and the hotel are not able to store food for me (health and safety) but I’ve made a list of what I can get , porridge , cup a soup . Noodles , rice pots.
They do sound lovely though , when I get a house I will try them . Thank you
I would love to see my children, more than anything but I can’t have my ex knowing where I am and my ex wouldn’t let my mental health team pick them up and bring them to see me. We are trying to work out ways in which I can see them. It’s hard. At the moment he’s got all the power regarding our children and I think it will have to eventually go to court but I need to go to court after I’ve got a home , it will go against me at the moment with me being homeless.
I’ve just been listening to that you tube video , it’s so relaxing! I have saved it to my phone and will give it a try throughout the day . Thank you xx