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Thank you Apolloneuro.
I will send her an email now explaining everything .
And I know what you mean about Saturday I am waiting for the council to call me to explain what’s happened since last night xx

Hi PeggyMitchellsCameo,
Im not hungry at the moment but there is a vending machine downstairs . Thank you xx

Hi Apolloneuro,
I hope you’re ok?
It was so unbelievably kind for @TealPoet to book me in for 3 nights and I’m so grateful she has done that . Bless her
I have thought about that and when the council ring me today I will mention I need accommodation from Saturday and see if something can get booked in from them but after yesterday I am
not holding any hope xx

Hi Ruralretreating,
Ive just googled and my MP is Sally Jameson.
Contact details are :

Constituency - Doncaster Central
Office details to follow
Telephone: TBC

Parliamentary
House of Commons, London, SW1A 0AA
Telephone:
Email: [email protected]
Web & social media

Thank you but I don’t want you going out of your way and use up your free time for me. Your support is already enough xx

Hi RaspberryBeretxx,
I can’t believe my mum either but I’m trying not to think about her lack of love and care for me because it upsets me tremendously, it actually hurts my insides when I think about it .
If a train had come on the platform I was on they would have been her last words to me. She knew I was on the streets with cancer and paralysed and she couldn’t care one bit . It breaks my heart.
I have no family I’ve lost everything and everyone .
The police were brilliant with me , all of them were . They were shocked at everything that has happened and that the council had put me there as they know it well as they get a lot of call outs there.
Thank you for the love and luck xx

Hi Munchyseeds2,
I hope you are ok?
Thank you and thank you for your lovely kind words. I’m laying here now with tears streaming down my face because I felt so utterly unloved and worthless but you’re all going out of your way being so nice to me and being there when I have nobody. It’s touched my heart ❤️ xx

Hi nornironlady,
Thank you and I’m very sorry that I made you worried. It was a weird feeling yesterday , I fought and fought all day , spoke to so many different people , got emails sent to council from my medical team and they still wouldn’t budge . Then after I left the house I just went numb and felt numb and knew what I needed to do because my body and mind have no more fight left .
I cannot believe the generosity and the lovely messages and for making me feel loved by everybody on here because that’s the think I was missing the most . Love and care . And you have all shown me that immensely , thank you 🙏 xx

Hi RaspberryBeretxx,
Thank you 🙏
Your right things do seem very very bleak at the moment . I’ve honestly got no strength left .
Ive got to wait for the council to ring me to see what they say and I really don’t want to speak to them today.
I cannot see a future anymore the tiny glimmer I have had these last few days has gone.
Apparently when you’re absolutely broken you can still break , that’s what I’ve learned since yesterday.
I am not even going to leave me room today I don’t think I’ll be able to keep myself safe with how I’m feeling xx

Thank you Ruralretreating,
Yesterday has absolutely broken me , I’m back to being how I was before in tears all the time and shaking. I just feel that the council didn’t help me at all yesterday and they made an already hard situation a whole lot worse .
@TealPoet is amazing I’m still in shock that somebody would be that kind to me and do something like that . I’m absolutely amazed. Thank you TealPoet so much xx

Oh and I did reach out to my mum and said I’m homeless and living on the streets with nowhere to go , her reply was ‘awww no’ and didn’t text me after that xx

Thank you PeggyMitchellsCameo,
Yesterday just went from bad to worse for me I was on the phone constantly from 9am up until they closed . The council wouldn’t accept recommendations from rethink nor my creative support worker as they are charity led it had to be from a professional. The council just wouldn’t budge at all no matter how many people spoke to them about it , it was that hotel or Bradford . So my mental health team and a doctor wrote an urgent letter to them and emailed it to them to say that sending me there will have a detrimental effect on my mental health and also included in the ‘Domestic abuse Act’ that suitable accommodation must be found . That was not suitable at all. Everybody thought it . Rethink , creative support
, domestic abuse team and mental health team but they would not budge! They deemed it suitable and there argument was that there’s men in other hotels , I know there is but not 97% of men nor the type of men . Even the police were fuming that they’d tried to send me there.
Then the out of hours council number said I should count myself lucky I’ve got a room! That was the final straw for me . I started shouting saying ‘lucky? Lucky?, I’ve got cancer , had to flee DV, my
mental health is on the floor hence being here for 11 days, I’m homeless and I haven't seen my children in 3 weeks and I’m partially paralysed but I’m lucky’ . The havon was having another resident using my room so I have to leave . I just walked out I was so upset and angry . I realised after a while of trying to walk with my crutch and a suitcase wasn’t going to work for me so I sat at a bus stop and stopped a bus and asked if they went to town as station right next to it and they did so I got on. As soon as I got on the bus that’s when I saw the police cars but I just put my head down and they didn’t notice .
I got to the train station and to my luck all the lifts were broken to go down so I tried to carry my suitcase up all the flights of stairs but one man grabbed it for one and another grabbed it for another . I got to the platform and I waited . I was crying and shaking like a leaf . My phone kept ringing and I turned my location services off I was on I really was . All that work I did at the crisis house has been completely ruined by what happened yesterday .
The police found me at the station, it was 2 women and we sat and talked for abit I was sobbing at this point so they asked to take me back to the station . I agreed and they drove me there and we went into a room with sofa chairs in and one made me a cup of tea as was freezing and 4 of them were talking to me at different times . Even the sergeant came to see me . She wanted to go and arrest ex for the DV but I said I didn’t want that , he’s got the children and I don’t want any them to see anything like that. I said to one of the officers that I feel sad and lonely and that I havnt had a cuddle in months and months and she just wrapped her arms around me. It was a proper meaningful cuddle and meant so much at that moment.
The police were saying that if I didn’t accept this room although not ideal they would have to section me because of risk to myself so I was really stuck between a rock and a hard place.
She spoke to the out of hours council and said Laura can’t go to that hotel but the lady kept saying this is all we’ve got but the police said surely because of the circumstances you can do something. She rang back 20 mins later as she had rang travel lodge and even though they were full for the councils rooms they still had availability so they agreed with the council it would just be for one night and try and sort everything else out today . The police brought me here and checked me in and came to my room with me. And I got another cuddle . She told me that they had been looking for me for ages and she couldn’t have home home tonight without finding me . The police were so very lively to me .
So I got here and crumbled to the floor and loud sobbed for a while and then @TealPoet asked me where I was and she booked an extra 3 nights here for me . I still can’t believe the absolute kindness of what she’s done. I can’t believe somebody wanted to do that for me who’s never even met me .
I’m sorry to you all for making you worried , if I had of been on the correct platform I wouldn’t b here right now but when I got to the hotel and read all your messages I had tears streaming down my eyes because in a world where I thought I had nobody and that nobody would care if I wasn’t here anymore you made me see that’s not true. I absolutely sobbed at all the messages.
I’m sorry for everything I put you all through last night xx