Ds is 2. Me and his dad are separated but I tend to on average get Saturday 11-6 to myself. For various health reasons ex is unable to have him overnight. I use the time to see friends etc and I am often told I’m really lucky as my married friends rarely get proper ‘time off.’ I do get this and do appreciate its great to have this time.
But… am finding things horrendous with ds in the week. I work full time and some mornings he throws food, screams about getting into car seat…so much mess to clear up. The screaming the moment he’s fed up or board. I HATE it.
I feel like I’m just getting through life and surviving at the moment. No idea if ds is even happy and that makes me stressed as I do try to make sure he is but he’s so temperamental.
I am so miserable. I honestly hate it all. I cannot remember the last time I didn’t feel stressed or rushed. How is this life enjoyable? I can’t see an end but just want my own life back a bit and not to be shouted and screamed at.