This isn't an AIBU. It should be in health. I've posted shamelessly for traffic. I'm ill. I've been ill since I was small and there's not lots doctors can do. It's physical and serious. It's very debilitating, I can't go into details. I'm now in my mid-40s and I had maybe 10 years where medication worked, then it stopped. I can't have children, I'm often housebound, I loved travelling and would go to far-flung places on my own and do brave things. I was always so clever and did really well, but now I go for jobs and get usurped by someone with much less qualifications. It's pointless - I couldn't go into an office anyway. I don't know why I do it. I was dumped by someone who realised how ill I was (I was well when I met him). I do work (they employed me before I got sick) but my responsibilities are being pulled away and I'm bossed about by people 15 years younger in an office, while I sit alone at home. They talk about their holidays and weddings and children and I'm so sad. I want a life. I feel like such a loser, just sad and ill and housebound. I've had therapy but the issue is I'm physically unwell - just a quirk of nature that happened before I was born. I'm not after sympathy. I'm after advice but please not therapy as I have a lot of hospital appointments already, and I need to be in the right frame of mind, and I don't have the energy for a dog.
Thank you.