Me and my exDP were together around 6 years ago. We broke up because he said he “sabotaged” it - basically, nothing happened he just manufactured an argument and left. I was heartbroken because I really did love him - we were very in tune with each other, spoke a lot, same sense of humour etc, he’s the only person I’ve ever felt truly myself with.
In the 6 years since we broke up, I have had another relationship (an engagement that I ended) and so has he. We have both said to each other that nothing has come close to what we had. We have had some tough times during those six years - periods of contact and no contact.
He got in touch with me at the beginning of this year after around a year of not talking, asking whether I wanted to collect a houseplant I had given him at the start of our relationship. This is pretty much how he always starts contact again so I said outright “we either meet and talk like adults or we need to block each other”.
We met and had a very long chat where he told me he had had therapy and he understood how much he hurt me and was truly sorry, he asked whether I would want to give it another go. I told him firmly that we would have to take things slowly and communicate how we feel. He was SO happy when we decided to give things another go - thanking me for “forgiving” him and saying that all his friends were rooting for us, that we were made for each other etc. he also said he was surprised I was still speaking to him after what he did. We have had days spent together now and everything feels lovely, we’re older and wiser (I thought) but there’s still that undercurrent there that we know each other so well.
We’ve been seeing each other weekly now since around May time. In the last two weeks I’ve had a gut feeling he’s pulling away. He is taking longer to get back in touch with me, and last week he told me he was depressed and needed more therapy sessions and wasn’t where he wanted to be in life.
I texted him on Tuesday asking whether he wanted to come to an event in our town this weekend - he hasn’t replied. He has been online but no reply whatsoever. We don’t text daily, but we see each other every weekend so this is unusual.
It took me a long time to think about giving it another go - he broke my heart massively when I was younger!!! We have had conversations about the importance of communication so this feels extra hurtful. He himself said when he wanted to give it another go “we both have to be open and honest with each other”.
I’m at a loss now - what do I do? I have to end things I know, but I just wanted insight on whether I’m overreacting or whether I need to be more understanding, I wouldn’t be like this if it wasn’t for our history but it feels like the same old story repeating itself.
I know a lot of people will say never get back with an ex, but it’s too late for that!