Please help me. I am overly eating everyday. I have put on 4 stones since birth of my last child who is now 5 years old. I can’t stop eating. I can have a healthy meal and feel full but then I eat junk food. I’ve tried meal replacement shakes which truthfully work as I don’t have to think about food but then as soon as I eat my evening meal which is very healthy like protein and lots of fresh vegetables I then indulge in junk again. It’s like I’m okay if I don’t eat but the moment food passes my mouth I want more and more. I puke up (not intentionally) and straight away stuff my face again. My stomach hurts in the night so much from the eating.
I don’t know what to do.
i am having therapy and they have told me it’s a common symptom of CPTSD to eat lots and have weight issues. They are no help. They keep telling me it’s normal but no help with how to deal!
I know I sound extreme but I feel so fed up I do feel like ending my life sometimes as I’m fed up of this awful feeling in my body all the time. I obviously will not as my kids will then have trauma and I don’t want to leave them. I love them but I feel I am destructive in my behaviour and I am spoiling their life by this condition.