My partner and I have a newborn baby so I am unsure if I aibu and my hormones are all over the place and making me paranoid?
I went on my partners instagram to look at my profile and make sure it is definitely on private as we don’t follow eachother and I have pictures of my children on there and wanted to make sure it was definitely private. I went on explore to type in my name and it was full of naked women, this made me really upset as I’ve not long had a baby and also at the beginning of our relationship he made it clear to me that neither of us was to watch porn or look at any explicit things online. I have respected this and never looked at anything online. I confronted him in the morning and he denied it all, I was very upset and told him to leave. I expected him to go and stay with a family member and try to sort things out with me. Instead he went to the pub and got very drunk, he lied to me and told me he was at his dad’s. We share our locations with eachother so I could see he was at the pub. I phoned him later on and he answered the call outside and when he went back into the pub he put me on silent for a couple of minutes which I found very suspicious. He did not come home for a couple of nights but when he did come home he was very drunk because he had been drinking the whole time and enjoying himself. The day after he was back we had sex and he was doing new things that he had never done before. I can’t stop thinking that he has cheated and that’s where all these new things have come from. Am I just hormonal and thinking too much? I have caught him out many times lying but never cheating etc. he says he would never cheat on me but now I am unsure. Also I was crying on the phone and very upset, he did not care and was clearly enjoying how upset he was making me.