I just need moral support tbh..
It is a bit unreasonable obviously and I will be unblocking her in a day or so. I just can't cope with it right now.
There's a whole backstory and I've posted on here before and been told to cut contact. People get frustrated with me constantly posting because I don't cut contact permanently. I just can't do that tho as I'm her only child and only close relative. My dad (her husband and previous carer) is dead.
I'm alone with my 3 children over the weekend.. 2 primary aged and 5mnth old baby. My DH is away all weekend with a friend. He's just lost his grandmother who he lived with as a child. He's just gone for a 2 night break with his mate in the city.
I don't drive. My mum does not live in my town. It's vaguely walkable to her house but it's 5 miles.. I do walk there sometime to help her after the kids are in bed. But obviously can't do that at the moment as DH is away so can't leave kids alone.
My mum has lived there for a while and the issue is she can't drag her wheelchair inside over the step to charge it up. I don't understand why she hasn't bought a ramp. She's managed to get other furniture.
It's a long way for me to go on public transport with all the kids plus the cost.
I've told her I can't do it this weekend. The kids have stuff on too.
I think I'd be more minded to if the last time I'd done it she hadn't been so awful. I went on Friday.. walked over when the kids were in bed and the minute I got there she said 'no one helps me because everyone is horrible'
The back story of the amount I have helped her over the last couple of years I've posted about before. I've helped her to my own detriment. Both physically mentally and financially.
She's been texting all day "answer me now"
The baby was awake all night and is just crying constantly today..
I just snapped and texted back "no" then blocked her.
My DH has already blocked her because she was texting and calling him numerous times about picking up something from B&Q for her only hours after he'd had a bereavement (which she knew about because I told her)
Anyway thanks for listening. I just feel so guilty when I reach the end of my tether like that. I'm not going over there I'm taking the kids to the park. But I will feel guilty and sorry for her the entire time there's no escaping it.
I good percentage of me thinks maybe I am an awful person.