Ds is 21 months. I spend one day a week with him and work four days. I am a single parent but he does see his dad most weeks. I do have the chance for a break etc. But the issue is that I am so bored.
I find it all soooo boring! And it makes me feel terrible because I know when I do sit and play he loves it but more than 20 minutes and I feel like I’m slowing losing my brain cells. I get so bored. The majority of the day is picking up mess or wiping shit off my hands or struggling into a car seat or whatever. Then I’m often attacked when trying to dress him or he’s angry about something out of the blue. I know it’s all usual toddler stuff but I find it so horrendously boring that I genuinely count down the hours :( it makes me so sad as I feel like a terrible mum. I wonder if I am doing something wrong?! I do have structure to our days together. Fresh air, park, play area, walk, soft play, meet other mums… I do things with him but it’s just so. So. So. Boring. And I don’t think other mums feel this way! Am I getting this wrong and damaging him? I don’t want him to sense how bored and fed up I am.