Sorry for posting here. It’s late & I guess I thought this would have the most traffic.
I went back to work full time 3 months ago. I have DC6 & DC3 and have worked part time/self employed since having them until this job now.
honestly I’m sinking into a depression and I just don’t know what to so.
it’s impossible to juggle it all. For the last month it’s been back to back illnesses between the two. I’m currently sat is DC6s room as they’ve woken genuinely about 15 times already this evening with a cough and earache. They only went back to school today after being off most of last week with a sickness bug. Before that DC3 was on/off nursery with a temperate and ear infection for the best part of 10 days.
I haven’t had a full night sleep in months as DC3 gets in our bed even when they’re not ill.
they’re on different schedules no matter what we try, one is a night owl and we struggle to get them to sleep before 9-10pm and the other wakes us up before 6am every morning.
that’s before we even think about school holidays, no holiday clubs that don’t cost thousands for the summer run 9-5 everyday. Most are only odd weeks and finish at 4pm.
I just don’t know what to do. I feel desperate. DH helps but the kids still want me. The house is trashed constantly. Piles of clean washing I just don’t know when I’ll ever have time to put away.
we have no family that can help, my mum died a few years ago and I have no contact with my dad. DHs parents have the kids occasionally for a weekend but aren’t local or in good enough health to do more than that.
I just want to quit 😭 I love the job but I just don’t know what to do - I worry for my future prospects too
thanks for reading if you got this far I guess I just wanted a handhold and to see if anyone else has been through similar