Getting changed this morning in bathroom and looked in the mirror (big mistake)
Am approaching 40 and have had 3 large babies. Breastfed 3. Gained 100lbs.
Lost 84 lbs.
My belly I can handle, just about. It's so saggy but I'm really not that fussed
But my boobs :(
My previously E cup boob's have withered away. They're just like socks. My nipples face down and the stretch marks on them are insane. Deflated. Pale and stretched to buggery.
I felt upset, all the work to lose the weight and I feel I look worse now than before.
At least I had a good set of tits to focus on beforehand
I vented this to DH and he said 'your boobs are lovely'
And quite unreasonably it made me pissed off. No. They aren't lovely. They just aren't. By any standard.
I know he was trying to make me feel better but if he told me his receding hairline was bothering him I wouldn't insist he had lovely thick locks.
I'm not mad at him for saying it. I'm mad at myself for spending the last 10 years fucking my body up so badly.
I could get implants. But I would need a lift and the thought of my nipples being cut off makes me gag.
Plus there's the whole GA thing and also the fact I would need to get them replaced at some point.
At 40 is it even worth it?
I just feel so down, frumpy and horrible :(