i’ve never really done anything like this but i need help. i’m a 29 yr old single mum of 8 yr old twins, in september of 2022, i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and autism, among general social anxiety. after my diagnosis, i feel like everything fell apart. i lost my mum, last year in may, then my cat passed away a few months later and it hit my mental health Hard.
ive been struggling a lot with keeping up with household chores and it’s gotten out of hand. i’ve tried asking family for help but it always goes the same way, they say they will and then they never do, ive gotten quotes from cleaning company’s for hoarders and such and it’s like two grand just for a deposit and i simply can’t do that. im so terrified of losing these kids cause they are the only reason im still here today, but im at a point where im considering calling social services on myself. but im not sure whether they would just take them away instantly, or if they would actually try and help me.
my son is autistic too, and my daughter is so shy, im afraid that they’ll take them from me and they’ll both just be so afraid. i love them more than anything, i want so badly to do better for them but just looking at the mess gives me anxiety and i just don’t know where to start. i feel so ashamed, i don’t want them to remember this as their childhood.