My child had an activity yesterday where parents had to stay on site whilst it’s being done but usually we drop and go on weekend but as the format was different and it’s half term we were expected to stay for around 3 hours. After a long chat with DH regarding he doesn’t spend much time with us as a family and work takes priority he came to this with me as he had no meetings that afternoon. This is very rare as he never takes time off for anything.
I had a realisation that I’m the problem not him, I might be wrong as my mental health is not great right now. I thought I’d post and get some insight/advice:
I don’t really see the parents much as it’s usually drop and go but my child’s best friend from school was there too. The mum is pleasant - we say hello when we see each other at school, we’ve rarely been to each other’s homes but when we have it’s pleasant and usually for a kids party etc. Well I asked her to join me and DH whilst we were waiting for the kids and it was so awkward! I kept getting tongue tied and nervous but DH was breezily chatting away for ages to a person he doesn’t know and has never met. This made me think it might just be me. I got nervous when ordering my drink too as I wasn’t sure if hot drinks could be taken outside. He later commented on this and said I was practically shaking asking the guy. I know to an extent my mental health has been caused by the relationship with DH (he never speaks to me, shares any plans, looks at me with disgust etc).
i feel so bad about myself. I’ve put on a lot of weight since things got worse with us (since birth of my youngest as I got overwhelmed but he didn’t step in to help me).