Following on from the thread
https://www.mumsnet.com/talk/money-matters/5066331-do-you-feel-bad-for-receiving-a-high-amount-of-uc
DD is non verbal and has a learning disability. She’s 6
we co sleep which means I’ve not had a good night’s sleep in years (will often wake in middle of night, sometimes for 20/30 minutes but often for and hour or 2). I’ve tried sleep training but distressed her to the point of nearly throwing up whilst crying. Also a safety thing as will happily climb/go where shouldn’t. Won’t go to sleep independently and will often wake up or cry going to sleep
Not potty trained yet. Have tried but genuinely could not care less about pooping and peeing everywhere. Like couldn’t care less! Oh and also smears her poo. Will take off her nappy or stick her hands in and rub it on the carpet/walls/furniture. This means I really have to watch her 24/7. She’s clever in the sense that she’ll often wait until I’ve got my back turned to do it!
no sense of safety. You have no idea how jealous I get when I see children her age walking happily next to their parents. I could never let her hand go even for a second.
I cannot put into words the anxiety I feel about the future. Imagine your child not being able to tell you if they’re in pain or they’re being hurt. I’m a single parent and I wouldn’t even consider a new relationship due to how paranoid I am re new partner.
Things like the support they’re entitled-her EHCP took a ridiculously long time to come through and even that was a fight. It’s not perfect but I don’t have the strength to fight. Things like SALT and OT on the NHS is abysmal. Literally a few sessions and I could have got the information off Google.
Bangs head in frustration and often don’t know why she’s annoyed. Scratches/pinches when upset
Has broken countless tablets and phone and the TV!
Sensory issues so things like clothing will
often take off. I’ve walked in on her standing naked on the window sill
Loves to tip things out eg the fairy liquid/pasta/rice or a cup
of water
I would happily swap the benefits I receive as a single mother for her health. I receive maintenance from her father but would happily give that up for him to take the load off 50/50. He can’t and won’t.
I work part time but it’s very likely my contract won’t be extended as I’ve taken too much time off when she’s been ill (wont even take Calpol and can’t blow her nose!). Her school have a breakfast club and clubs until 4ish but that means she’s likely to have had very, very little to eat (it’s heartbreaking to see how she eats once she’s home-like she’s not had anything all day). There’s also the issue of finding staff for her during this time as she needs 121 support and I don’t think the EHCP will cover that. Then there’s all the school holidays to think of! Wtaf do people do during the 6 week holidays with a SEN child who needs 121 at all times??!!!
I do not think of things like career progression or changing jobs as I will literally take anything that fits around her needs. I’ve graduated with a degree and have two masters but they don’t mean much at the moment.
I’m sure I’m missing things out but I sincerely hope this gives you an idea of what it’s like
being a carer to a child with a disability. This is just one side. There are countless others dealing with disabilities or disabled children (all with their own unique challenges). I can’t even imagine what it’s like dealing with the above but x2 or 3 children.