I have a 2 year old and a 4 year old and I'm currently on a career break.
My H is away daily from 6 am until 8:30 pm.
The nursery run takes 1 hour each way. My eldest goes to a school nursery 5 days a week and my little one goes 3 days a week.
The weekends are spent doing play dates / birthday parties, Day trips and seeing family.
The days my kids are both in child care are spent catching up on laundry / cleaning / cooking / food shopping and going to the gym. I'm so lucky I have time to do those things and can stay off work for a while as I was suffering from pretty bad burn out before.
Anyway, I just feel stuck and down and so tied down. I know these are normal feelings but sometimes it feels pretty dark. I try not to feel / think about things and just get on with things, but the feelings get to me sometimes.
I sometimes get frustrated with my kids. I feel like they are the boss of me and everything I do is to try to avoid them screaming at me.
I know I'm so lucky, so I don't understand why I'm still struggling.