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Original poster

….to think that anxiety is an evil fucker and if we all share hatred for it….

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BabbleBee · 13/04/2024 18:04

….then I’ll feel better?

I’m having a flare of anxiety. Not coping with illness and minor change. I’ve started taking propranolol, all the usual coping mechanisms. That horrible knot in my stomach and nausea is refusing to budge.

I fucking hate anxiety. Anyone else want to slag it off and help me feel better about how fucking inconvenient and horrible it is?

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BabbleBee · 13/04/2024 18:35

Noshowlomo · 13/04/2024 18:31

It’s shit sooooo shit. I’m anxious as fuck today and got major health anxiety about my son (I’ve got PTSD from my daughters stillbirth) and often, like today, I carry this ball of anxiety around and it’s so heavy. I hate it. It’s not real and should just fuck off

I think mine is probably PTSD after one of mine had a serious illness. I’m so sorry for your loss - would you like to tell us your DD’s name?

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ssd · 13/04/2024 18:34

I've just started reading At Last A Life which i seen recommended on here as great for anxiety. Ive only started but the premise seems to be dont fight anxiety, just let it run its course and it'll loose its powerful the more you stop fighting it. Or something like that, as i said im just at the beginning.

Ive tried everything else. The book says to stop trying.

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BabbleBee · 13/04/2024 18:34

Min16 · 13/04/2024 18:29

Yep I stupidly ignored my worsening MH over the last few years and now have regular panic attacks and leaving the house is an ordeal. Been signed off work and prescribed antidepressants. I want my life back! Fuck you anxiety

Fuck you anxiety indeed!

Fuck off to the far side of fuck and leave @Min16 alone anxiety you nasty little fucker.

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Noshowlomo · 13/04/2024 18:31

It’s shit sooooo shit. I’m anxious as fuck today and got major health anxiety about my son (I’ve got PTSD from my daughters stillbirth) and often, like today, I carry this ball of anxiety around and it’s so heavy. I hate it. It’s not real and should just fuck off

Min16 · 13/04/2024 18:29

Yep I stupidly ignored my worsening MH over the last few years and now have regular panic attacks and leaving the house is an ordeal. Been signed off work and prescribed antidepressants. I want my life back! Fuck you anxiety

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BabbleBee · 13/04/2024 18:20

Alcohol and anxiety definitely don’t mix. I’ve had my worst panic attacks after a couple of glasses of wine so I don’t have any now.

The whole irrational fight or flight response is so unnecessary.

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Fallenangelofthenorth · 13/04/2024 18:18

It is. We waste so much of our life worrying about shit that doesn't even happen. I've got a coach at the moment which has helped a bit but I'm starting a new job soon and the feelings of inadequacy and fear of failure have really come back with a vengeance. I'm gonna cut out alcohol for a bit as I think that definitely makes things worse

MonsteraMama · 13/04/2024 18:17

It's so crap. Sometimes I want to pull my brain out and politely explain to it that I am sending a work email, not fleeing for my life from a wolf, and I do not need the monkey brain fight or flight response right now.

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BabbleBee · 13/04/2024 18:15

I’ve got friends on Netflix. Currently in bed with chest infection. Can’t walk it off or scrub the bathroom to get rid of anxious evergy. Can’t do deep breathing exercises. So frustrating… repeating over and over that anxiety isn’t fact. I’m ok. I’m safe. It’s exhausting.

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Fallenangelofthenorth · 13/04/2024 18:12

Propranolol takes the edge off. I try and remind myself that the fear isn't real and all will be well. Today I'm watching back to back Benidorm to try and distract myself. Nothing works long term though. Or hasn't so far.

Cadela · 13/04/2024 18:10

Yes anxiety is horrendous. Mind spiralled out of control when I suddenly developed epilepsy 2 years ago and the not knowing when I’m going to have a seizure has not been fun.

Also on propranolol, pragabalin and clobazam which the latter 2 also double as anti-seizure meds but doesn’t help a lot.

Currently on longest waitlist ever for useless CBT which I know doesn’t help, but GP won’t refer me until I’ve done it. Sick of it all!

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BabbleBee · 13/04/2024 18:08

I’m sorry you’re in the same space as me @Fallenangelofthenorth it’s fucking horrible isn’t it. None of my usual coping mechanisms are working or I can do because I’m unwell. Argh!

What usually works for you?

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Fallenangelofthenorth · 13/04/2024 18:06

Oh God yes I agree. Feeling exactly the same myself today.