He gets up late, fine.
Then mopes around in his dressing gown. Making mess.
Then complains about mess. Then goes upstairs for ages. Always retreating from me and the kids.
I said today we have to leave by 11. I told him at 9. He went upstairs at 9:30 and came back down at 10:45. In a massive mood. I've been up since 6 am ( also had lovely night wakings from 2 year old at 3 am and then I was up with both kids before 6 am).
I had cleaned and tidied all of downstairs while also looking after DC (2 and 4).
I then have to try and get myself and the two DC ready in 15 minutes. I threw DC 2 clothes at H after having picked it out and ask him to dress him. He does it but again, huge grump. Just looks so sad / angry / exasperated.
I help get DC4 ready quickly. Get ready myself very fast. Hair looks shit, I look shit, as I've had no time again.
I put both kids in the car on my own while H is doing other stuff, like taking a hundred years to put his shoes on / smoke.
Finally gets into the car. Not a work. Just grump. All the way to where we are going. I try to start a couple of conversations, he doesn't really respond. I ask what's wrong. Nothing. I then get frustrated.
Anyway eventually it's ok and we buy whatever we needed to buy. Go for lunch and then head back home.
We've been home for a few hours and he's retreated upstairs again. Not a word.
It's this shit on repeat. He clearly didn't want to go out. He never wants to do anything. He's so grumpy. I try to talk to him. Tell him I'm concerned etc, is he ok ? He snaps and doesn't want to talk.
I am so sick of the sight of him. He just comes in and out when he wants. I'm so tired from having had a few bad nights with my 2 year old. I could sleep now. I'm stuck. I hate how grumpy he is.