Do you ever feel utterly smothered?
My 14 year old is with me 24/7 when not at school or with his cousins. He refuses to leave house apart from these times and literally follows me around the house. I don't need to say that I love him with all of my heart and am heartbroken for him and all that he is missing oht in. He's had multiple interventions but the resounding conclusion from all professionals is that while he says he does, he really does not want to change and therefore does not use strategies given to him.
Last night, as I do every Friday night, I was in a group chat with friends on WhatsApp, eating my crisps, drinking my wine. He sat beside me for the majority of that time and then said he was going for a shower.
He then came down and starting shouting the odds about when I was going to bed, eh at was I doing, who I was talking to, what was I eating and drinking and said he wasn't happy about all of this as I said I was going to bed 'soon'. Said it all made him uncomfortable
He said I'm ' always' chatting to my froends( I dont really go out because of his anxiety) always staying up late, always eating crisps and drinking wine . The' always' thing was repeated . None of which is true .
I'm so done with it all. I now, it seems cannot even socialise on WhatsApp in my own home due to his anxiety , cannot go to bed when I want, cannot eat or drink what I want and feel constantly monitored and controlled.
AIBU to feel like this. Do I just give up these lovely relaxed weekly evenings for the sake of my child's anxious life. I'm a single parent and his anxiety is centred on fear of abandonment and trauma.