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To be so sad to find out I'm having another boy

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PremiumRaa · 19/11/2023 22:05

I know I am, but I need someone to hear me as I don't feel I can say this in RL.

DH and I have been married for 10 years, I suffered with infertility and after IVF had our son two years ago. Even though he was much longer for I'm almost ashamed to say that I was desperate for a girl. I work in a very female industry, I have many female friends and have always been close to my mum. I imagined all the typical things I might do with a daughter. I found out I was having a son and was disappointed but also elated to be having a baby.

Six months ago DH and I found out we are unexpectedly pregnant again. I never expected to have more than one DC so it's been a shock. Part of me was wishing that this was my chance to have a daughter, however the child is another boy. This is so much for me to get my head around. Please don't flame me, I just need to know if anyone can understand.

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bakewellbride · 19/11/2023 22:57

@EmmaGrundyForPM but on a thread about being sad about having a boy why aren't people allowed to say positive things about boys such as 'boys are the best'? Surely that's just a positive thing to try to balance out the negativity of the op.

Also I've heard the blazing rows between my next door neighbour and her daughter when she was a teen, it's not always necessarily a gender stereotype thing but people's genuine experience. I 100% do not buy into gender stereotypes but so far dd has been harder work than ds (although I love and cherish them then the same of course). Just the way it's gone.

ChristmasCrumpet · 19/11/2023 22:56

@PremiumRaa This is going to be long, but I think it's important to know you aren't alone.

My first was a boy and I was disappointed, of myself and 6 friends I was the only one who didn't have a girl, so it stung that they were all comparing names and swapping tiny pink clothes and toys, and I was the odd one out.. He wasn't a mummy's boy either, and it had me pondering several times if I was even cut out to be a mother. He was much later diagnosed with additional needs, but having no frame of reference, I thought this was just what a boy was like. Unaffectionate, loud, uninterested, most days a battle. I saw the social media of "mother's and daughters" and being a girly girl, longed for that portrayed closeness, and cleaness, a best friend for life companionship, the "mini me" in pretty dresses and Barbie dolls, and looked at the stark difference at my experience as a mother.

When we then fell unexpectedly pregnant with DTwins, and the sonagrapher announced the first was a boy, I was a little panicked, but then she announced the second was a girl, and suddenly I felt ok. At this point, eldest DS was undiagnosed, and I expected a carbon copy of him. But at least I have a girl. Quiet, thoughtful, cuddly, I thought.

DTwins are nearly 4. Boy twin, is the most loving, sweetest, compassionate little soul. He is my shadow, even rushes to climb in my bath because he wants to be with mummy all the time. If he were my first, I would probably have many more children, as he would be what I was basing that decision on. He throws his little arms around me, and it's just perfect. He'll wander over, just to say he loves me, then wanders back off to whatever he was doing. He's fantastic.

Girl twin is a strange little character. Really quirky. Packs her pockets full of insects. Doesn't like dolls. Refuses dresses and skirts. Anything pink is a no go. And now I compare this experience to my 6 friends who have their now older daughters, I now realise how similar their experience is, Vs what they portray, mainly online. Turns out, very few girls are the pink frilly types society makes us think we're getting. We might be able to control the narrative (and dress code) whilst the child is under 2, but when they start becoming their own person, this soon fades. Mine is grubby, pokes about in the mud far more than either brother. She is a hurricane of a child, more "boy" than either of my actual boys.

I do understand your disappointment, and you'll think it's so easy for me to say, as I "got" a girl. But what society, media, even our own peers, lead us to believe what a mother/daughter relationship is, truly is not that. I'm sure you'll get someone come along soon enough and declare they are exactly like the matching mama/mini me gorgeous, giggling duos all over social media. They are the exception not the rule. I certainly do not have a girl in any shape of how girls are constantly portrayed to me.

Truly, if I knew then, what I know now, I wouldn't be bothered about having a girl at all. Please, believe me, and enjoy your boys.

Pinkfluff76 · 19/11/2023 22:53

I’m really sorry. I’d feel the same as you. Don’t be hard on yourself and feel ashamed. Sending love

MaraScottie · 19/11/2023 22:53

bakewellbride · 19/11/2023 22:25

Also to add there is a lot of stress and worry that comes with having daughters that doesn't come with sons. The minefield is when ear piercing is allowed / make up etc. If my ds has her own baby then I'll be worried to death about her in labour. And when mine are teens it'll be dd I'll be worried about out on her own at night rather than ds. Don't get me wrong I LOVE having one of each and feel so grateful to have a daughter but I'm not looking forward to a future ear piercing argument! With ds there presumably won't be such an argument.

Erm, I wouldn't exactly call ear piercing or make up a "minefield" - I think if this is the worst of the tween or teenage angst you have to deal with, you're doing well. I mean I know this is off topic but it's really not that big a deal I would have thought. And you absolutely may have this same conversation with a son.

From the mum of an 11 year old with pierced ears.

sugarpops · 19/11/2023 22:53

I have 2 sons and 1 daughter. I love them all equally. The boys have been far far easier to parent than my daughter. I always imagined to have a similar relationship with my daughter and it's nothing like I imagined it to be. She's 12 and doesn't like me half the time. And the drama that comes with her and her friends.....just wow.

We are close don't get me wrong, but pre teen/teen girls vs pre teen/teen boys - give me boys any day.

PriOn1 · 19/11/2023 22:52

If it helps, with my second, I wanted a baby of the opposite sex to the one I got, but on arrival, I was so overwhelmed with love for that tiny person that it stopped mattering and became irrelevant.

I hope you can find the same kind of peace, OP, because wishing for something you haven’t got shouldn’t eat away at the pleasure you gain from what you do have.

HappyMe6 · 19/11/2023 22:52

You cannot help your emotions, but…. I bet there are an awful lot of people that would be grateful to have two healthy babies

Onwardsandonwards · 19/11/2023 22:52

I was disappointed briefly when I found out I was having a second boy. He is now the most perfect person and we are sooo close, i wouldn’t change anything! Sit with the feelings, don’t feel bad, and let it pass x

EmmaGrundyForPM · 19/11/2023 22:51

PremiumRaa · 19/11/2023 22:35

I understand that boys can be affectionate and loving, but when I think about my life long term I imagined a daughter. Someone to become a friend and confidante in the way I don't think adult sons do.

I guess I can't let go of this feeling.

I think you're buying into gender stereotypes. There's no reason you can't have a close relationship with a son.

We have 2 sons. No infertility issues, but I had very problematic pregnancies, especially with DS1. I was in hospital for months before he was born. I'm very thankful that I ended up with two beautiful healthy babies.

Both my babies are now in their 20s I'm very close to DS1. He confides in me, rings me for long chats and we go to films an concerts together.

Ignore all the " boys are best" and "girls are hard work" comments.They also feed into gender stereotypes.

Hopefully you will have a lovely healthy little boy shortly, whom you will adore.

MissHoollie · 19/11/2023 22:51

I get you.
It will pass.
I have three girls and now it doesn't matter but I understand

StarDolphins · 19/11/2023 22:51

Op, you’re absolutely entitled to feel how you feel. I understand. I really wanted a girl. Don’t ever feel guilty about what your preference is.

Take a few days to grieve, then accept your cards, it will all be fine.

Emi199 · 19/11/2023 22:50

Congratulations OP. They’ll be best friends forever! What a gift. The only thing I’ll say is that, yes, you had one hell of a long and sad journey before getting your beautiful boys but I’d try to remind myself of all the women who still don’t have one baby at the end of many rounds of IVF. I have a friend like this. I was disappointed with my birth at first but then so relieved to have a safe arrival and a healthy baby. All the best!

Selenitetower · 19/11/2023 22:50

I’m an only child and really only wanted one child and for that child to be a girl, I instead have two boys. They’re now 9 and 11 and they are just wonderful little people I couldn’t even begin to imagine life any differently. We have an amazing relationship and they open up to me and tell
me everything which I adore, we often go shopping and out for lunches/dinners and we enjoy each others company and spending time together as a family/1:1. I love being their mum and as much as I was initially disappointed to learn they were both boys those feeling passed quite quickly. Gender disappointment is real and not uncommon but give it time and it should pass for you too.

bakewellbride · 19/11/2023 22:50

@Vettrianofan quite! And I ordered my wedding dress online so no magical girly family shopping trip - the horror!

Oilyoilyoilgob · 19/11/2023 22:50

I know you said you don’t want flaming, but finding it hard to not type what I’d really like to. I’m five years in ttc. Miscarriages and ivf along the way. I guess you can’t help how you feel but please please try and see the absolute amazing good fortune in your ‘problem’.

Mejustme3 · 19/11/2023 22:49

OP I can assure you that you will be so in love once your son is born. I was disappointed that my third was a boy…absolutely ok to have feelings.
Now I cannot imagine how life would have been if he was a girl. Probably the same TBH 🤷‍♀️X

ginandtonicwithlimes · 19/11/2023 22:49

Suchalonggap · 19/11/2023 22:46

Exactly the same here! I thought "daddy's girl" / "mummy's boy" was just something people said but couldn't be truer in our house!

My girl is a mummy's girl so complete opposite.

Abstractreader · 19/11/2023 22:48

There's a lot of people asking why it's always boy bashing.

Statistically speaking you're slightly more likely to have a boy than a girl. There are always slightly more boys born than girls. I think there is a lot to be said of the mother daughter bond for a lot of people who then want to replicate it and then there are people like myself, who have horrible mothers and really wanted a girl to have a healthy mother daughter bond with.

I don't think it's boy bashing, I think we're still slightly stuck in the gender role thing too, that boys will grow up wanting to do stuff with their Dads all the time, be into Football or Rugby and this prompts the want for a girl to do girly things with. Of course this forgets the fact that many girls love sports and many boys love hanging out with their Mums, but it's quite a societal influenced issue imo.

tiggergoesbounce · 19/11/2023 22:48

You are not being unreasonable to feel like this now, your idea and desire has not been met. But once he is here safely, you will probably just see that he fits in perfectly.

I do understand i was like that when i was pregnant, i knew it was probably our only chance and i dreaded the thought of a girl (i know once here i may have adored her) but luckily we had a boy. But it's ok to have a desire.

Vettrianofan · 19/11/2023 22:47

Just to soften the blow a bit, I can tell you as a woman I can't stand perfume, going clothes shopping, beauty therapy, wearing pink or any of these types of things you'd have your heart set on with a daughter in years to come. My mum doesn't get to do these things like shopping with me but she does have my brother to help out there with stuff like that.

I have several DS and see them as individuals not what genitalia they have. They are all different.

theduchessofspork · 19/11/2023 22:46

Vettrianofan · 19/11/2023 22:40

It's always boys. Never girls.

That’s because it’s a women’s site.

Lots of men want a son, lots of women want a daughter. Not always obviously but a desire for a child of your own sex is usually the preference if there is one

Suchalonggap · 19/11/2023 22:46

Chipsahoyagain · 19/11/2023 22:15

I have one of each and my dd is such a dads girl. She absolutely adores him. She's only a baby though and her entire first year revolves around dh so you might be wishing for something that doesn't happen. otoh my ds is sooo close to me from baby till now (7yo).

Exactly the same here! I thought "daddy's girl" / "mummy's boy" was just something people said but couldn't be truer in our house!

grumpycow1 · 19/11/2023 22:45

Mum of 2 boys here - I always thought I’d have a girl so it did take some adjustment, but honestly I just love them so much and it is so lovely to see their friendship growing. I can’t really imagine being a girl mum now! Plus it is a hell of a lot easier logistically to have 2 the same and just use all the same stuff (I would have been a nightmare buying girls baby clothes. Not even pink stuff but vintage baby girl clothes, bobo choses etc). Allow yourself to feel how you feel but then get excited for your new bundle of joy.

SmallBox · 19/11/2023 22:45

A boy's best friend is his mother!

Babyenroute · 19/11/2023 22:45

My mum and brother are probably the closest in our family. He has always liked stereotypical boys things, they don't share similar interests but they are similar in nature. They meet for after work cocktails and are two peas in the same pod.

I hope I have a similar relationship with my son.

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