My dad was in my life till I was aged 5. Then my parents broke up and he met a new woman. Once he met the new woman that was it , he didn't want to see me again. He moved to a different country. He sent me a letter when I was a teenager saying he didn't want to see me again.
I naively thought he couldn't possibly mean it. And I went over to see him once when I was an adult. And he told me face to face that he didn't want to see me again. I didn't try again.
He is dead now. I just still feel such burning rage over it.
Me and my brother were in poverty when we were young. I've seen photos of my dad and his girlfriend at this time going off on lovely holidays.
My brothe spent a lot of his teenage years in a psychiatric hospital after cutting his wrists because he was suffering so much. My father was told about this , and he still didn't see my brother at all.
There was a time when we were in temporary emergency accomodation between houses when I was young because I was so poor. He never once asked if we were ok.
I have to accept that my own father didn't give a shit about my poverty and suffering and he didn't give a shit about me.
It's hard to bear. It makes me feel worthless and angry all the time.
I was reading a book about man called Wayne dyer. Wayne dyer had a similar father. Wayne's father left his mother. She had three small boys. His father never contacted them again, and the three boys were so poor that they ended up in foster care. Wayne said he was full of rage to his dad all his life and when he found his dad's grave he went to spit on it.
When he got to the grave he said he had an epiphany, he actually managed to feel forgiveness for his father.
And then his own life improved vastly and he went on to live a good life, and write beat selling books.
I feel like I can't forgive my dad, he let us suffer. It feels hard to get over.
Has anyone been rejected by their parent. And how did you get over it.