What mental health hell is this

I really feel for you and was in a similar position not too long ago, it's awful and can feel so lonely!
I second waking up your husband for a bit of support. In my experience my husband did not understand how bad I was feeling until I really spelt it out because he was having such a different experience. Ended up going to GP and a course of group counselling with other new mums. Really helped x

I missed that you have another adult in the house. Definitely wake your partner, they need to take over with the baby.

Yes, it sounds very much like anxiety. I would try to speak to your hv tomorrow and consider making a GP appointment.

In the short term, get yourself and the baby safe and comfortable. Yes, baby might scream, but it will end and they aren't being harmed. Try to breath normally. It used to help me to accept that the baby wasn't going to sleep and put a funny TV show on (Father Ted was my middle of the night viewing) rather than constantly trying to get them to sleep.

Treat yourself gently, it sounds awful.

Please wake up your DH. You’ll at least feel less alone. Sending strength and love to you.

Do wake up you husband and tell him how you feel right now and that you need help. Get an appointment booked tomorrow with your GP for yourself and baby and tell the receptionist it's an emergency.

Bless you. I’m going to try and find the right words for you , I’m not sure I can but I’ll try. My oldest daughter has an 8 week old and is experiencing a very similar thing. I told her , the girl I love most in the world the following..
you are going through something pretty much every mum does , that doesn’t make it easy and it’s not to minimise the hell youre experiencing, but it’s pretty common . We are human , we require certain things to make us function and sleep is one of them . You’re fucked up because you’re ridiculously tired , I was hallucinating at one point from baby sleep deprivation , it was terrifying and I was scared that would make me harm my child , make a mistake that would break them . I didn’t . You won’t either . The most helpful thing you can do is focus on yourself for a moment in time, are you hungry? Grab a sweet snack . If you smoke go have a cigarette . Then return to the task refreshed . Baby is tired too, they will sleep , they’re just not happy right now . Deep breath and then go through the list of stuff they need , if they’re still fussy they need comfort . Put on your favourite music and sway/ dance to it with them on your shoulder . Focus on relaxing yourself as the baby needs to feel you relaxed to chill themselves. Vent . Text your sister or best friend and tell them what a fucking nightmare you’re going through , then remember to text them back again when you feel better so they don’t worry if you go to sleep. Remember you are not failing or doing anything wrong , this shit is just hard and we all go a little crazy with it . If you can’t relax and feel safe after trying all this then ask someone for help , there is no shame in it . Most likely though , you’ll come through this and be a bit tougher for it, the next madness will cut a bit shallower .I pray you get some rest. I’m rooting for you and I’m here if you just need to vent more x

You poor thing. Sleep deprivation is a nightmare. Do you think it's that causing the panic or do you struggle with your mental health aside from that?

Hi OP. Are you alone? If so please call for help now family, friends or Samaratins. You obviously need help asap and hopefully you can then move forward. How old is your baby? It sounds like PND. Please reach out for help tonight. Sending you a hug. I wish I could come and help you. 💐