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Waiting to die

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NCNC101 · 25/08/2021 02:16

Does anyone else feel like they’re just waiting to die? I don’t mean feeling like you actively want to end your life, more that you just don’t care about anything anymore and wouldn’t be bothered at all if you died right now?

I’m not suicidal but I do feel like this quite often, although I would definitely never do it. It’s like I care so little about everything, including dying, that I’ll just passively do nothing until my time is up. I wonder sometimes if more people feel like this than care to admit. I think a lot of people that know me might be shocked if they knew I felt like this.

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Ahwelltoobad · 25/08/2021 07:22

I have felt the same thing, and I'm sorry you and others do, too. I've been thinking that if I die, that would be ok, like in an accident or so, not actively, by my own hand. That might be natural at 90, but not at 50. It's depression speaking, and it can be treated. Please seek help. Flowers

Bagelsandbrie · 25/08/2021 07:18

I think more people feel like this than they admit - I know I do. I have chronic disabilities and feel I’ve done everything I need / want to do with my life (I’m 40s) and the only thing keeping me going is my two children. But I don’t really feel depressed- I’ve been depressed before and this is different, it’s just a very pragmatic feeling that I’m getting older and things that mattered to me before don’t matter so much. I enjoy aspects of my life, I’m not “down” as such but I feel like life is a very fleeting thing and you get to a certain point as you get older where it’s just “keeping going”.

JulesCobb · 25/08/2021 07:11

Is that not depression?

SandraOhh · 25/08/2021 07:10

Yes I know what you mean. It all feels like one big long stretch left to endure. How is your mental health generally?

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