Feel like my life isn’t complete without a daughter, please slap some sense into me.....

You can create that same relationship with a boy.

I have 3 boys and also felt a similar way. Also, growing up I only ever imagined parenting in the context of having days out with a daughter (for some reason).

Although I desperately wanted a girl I just couldn't justify it in the end. I have to admit I did contact a clinic in New York for gender selection. Looking back I just laugh at how ridiculous it all was. I do get jealous every time I hear a family member/friend is expecting a girl but that's just life- you can't have it all. Time has helped I'm nowhere near as desperate as I once was.

I’m sure you’re not alone in feeling like this, OP. I think the key is to try to stop stereotyping gender/sex and see your DSs and two little people with distinct personalities.
I know a number of men who are really close to their mothers and do all the things you might associate more with girls. Equally, I can think of women who have an awful relationship with their mothers.
My own mother is dead and I have a wonderful relationship with my Mil. She definitely gained a daughter when her son married. I know this isn’t a given, but it just shows that you need to try and be open minded about these things.
Hope you find it easier as your boys grow and develop their personalities.

Not all girls are the same. Just because a child is a girl it doesn’t mean they will have a certain relationship with you or like certain things.

It is unlikely you could replicate the relationship bw you and your mother with your child because both the relationship and one of the people involved are different.

There is no reason why you cant have a deep and loving parent/child relationship with a son but, just as with a daughter, the texture of the relationship will depend on his peronality as much as yours.

I totally understand. I felt this heartache too, even though I had my two boys. It's a real struggle but sadly something you need to come to terms with. It's harder while you have a little one because you are probably often around people who have baby girls. It does get easier as they get older. We all have dreams that never came true and it is right to be sad about it.
Thankfully for me, when my youngest was 4 I found out I was pregnant. Totally unplanned, contraception fail. And I now have my baby girl. I feel so blessed. I hope your dream comes true too somehow. X x