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Long term crush on colleague

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Iamanananas · 01/05/2013 22:31

I have been married with DW for over 2 years, with her for more than 10. Things have not been great for a while. Not completely sure when it started but I reached a point when I lost all my confidence at home. I started to have a crush on my colleague almost 2 years ago. she is in a long term relationship with DB and I don't think she has even realised I like her. I started counselling a few months ago as the crush did not stop and my relationship with DW was not Improving. The crush started quite a while after the realisation that my relationship was not going the right way and i never had a crush until I met her. I know that DC is unreachable but I cannot stop thinking about her all the time. The more i go to counselling the stronger my feelings for DC become. it hurts so much and the guilt feeling is so intense!! I have not done anything wrong (yet) and, in some ways, I am proud of it and I am really trying to get thing working with DW. I'm so fed up to feel like this, and really feel abnormal in some ways. Has anybody been in a similar situation?

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LimitedEditionLady · 03/05/2013 08:40

Yes i know women that have,and men and it wasnt about sleeping together it was how the person made them feel.im aware that the OP is having a crush and its one sided but its not fair to label him.

AnyFucker · 03/05/2013 08:34

If a woman started this thread I would tell her the same thing

Stop making a fool of yourself and quit mistreating your husband

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Iamanananas · 03/05/2013 08:29

Just make thing clear, yep, I am a very emotional person and sometimes maybe a bit too much in touch with my feeling, fair enough. I am not the bad guy either. As I said, I just wanted your opinion on why a crush which WILL not go anywhere lasts for so long. It drives me nuts. I have not done anything with colleague and she does not know about my feelings. Yes, I hurt my wife and I am sorry about it. And want to work things out but I don't seem to manage to reassure my wife but seem to always fail. I think my feeling for the colleague is caused by two things, first my lack of confidence in my marriage and the fact that the colleague is a person I really could get ion well with. I never had a crush before that. I always thought my wife was better (truly!!).

I think anyfucker is a bit harsh. If a woman had started this thread, you would tell that her husband is a dick. But the fact that I started it means I am one. I'm not perfect and really do not look for compliment or being told that I am great. I would not post on Munsnet if I did.... I just needed to express feeling and see the reaction I got. I don't have anybody to share this with.

Will continue later, I have to go.

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blueshoes · 03/05/2013 08:13

You are right to feel uncomfortable, LimitedEdition. Women are every bit as capable of finding themselves in the OP's situation. It is not all cock.

LimitedEditionLady · 03/05/2013 07:49

Dont tell me im a sap,you dont know anything except that that i dont like how sexist.i just didnt like how you labelled men the same.thats not right.

MusicalEndorphins · 03/05/2013 07:18

My heart tells me to try to "seduce" my crush and start everything again with her.
That isn't your heart, you have the hots for her, let's say it like it is.

You need a reality dose. You are a married man and if you want to have an intimate relationship with this work person, you need to be a free man.

You really should leave your work. What is more important, your job or your wife?

It is up to you, but that is what I would do if I were you. I'd begin looking for a job somewhere else, and put an elastic band on my wrist. When ever I thought of the work college, I would snap the elastic on the inside of my wrist. It is a great and effective way to break a bad habit.

HullMum · 03/05/2013 02:52

also agree with anyfucker.

LittleMissLucy · 03/05/2013 01:22

I agree with AnyFucker on this one. And many people here are enabling him, which he loves.

Get over it, get on with it, go away OP.

AnyFucker · 03/05/2013 00:21

They don't need to do they, when there are saps like you around gagging to romanticise some nob's emotional abuse of his wife and idiotic mooning over some woman at his workplace

LimitedEditionLady · 03/05/2013 00:13

Yeah because he can write every feeling he has on here on a thread.
Did you read the bit about him starting everything again with her? Or did you just block that bit out because you seem to think that men only want a relationship for sex?not their personality,that they make you laugh or companionship.men dont have feelungs do they?

AnyFucker · 03/05/2013 00:08

My heart tells me to try to "seduce" my crush and start everything again with her.

Yes, he is interested in her love of poetry. Indeed.

LimitedEditionLady · 03/05/2013 00:02

How is he thinking with his cock anyfucker?
Did you just pluck that from the sky?
so because hes a man it means he cant be attracted to someone for more than the reason of having sexual relations with them?
A person is a person. is it right to make a judgement about what someone feels based on theur genitals?

blueshoes · 02/05/2013 23:53

A crush could end suddenly if something happens that changes its trajectory or you don't feed it, even if it has been going on for 18 months. Find something that will flip the switch - I wish I knew what. It usually means something else to occupy your thoughts - could be your DW, work or a new hobby.

FairPhyllis · 02/05/2013 23:50

You say you have not done anything wrong - yet. But you have. You have allowed yourself to become emotionally entangled with another woman and you are wallowing in it. No wonder your wife is closed off and anxious. She will be able to sense that you are emotionally distant.

You need to leave your wife if you don't want to be with her. If you want to be with her you need to change jobs and work on your marriage. It is up to you. Your wife can't do anything, because right now she doesn't know the full truth about her marriage. Because you are concealing it from her.

blueshoes · 02/05/2013 23:49

People don't necessarily notice colleagues have crushes on them. My boss had a crush on me for 8 years. I never noticed! I left the company when he finally confessed.

AnyFucker · 02/05/2013 23:48

it's not a gender reverse thread though is it, bimba

this bloke here is thinking with his cock and deserves to be pulled up on it, not excused and patted on the head with glib promises he could "end up with a stronger relationship"

I hope his wife leaves him, tbh

blueshoes · 02/05/2013 23:48

I agree with Bimba.

BimbaBirba · 02/05/2013 23:41

Honestly anyfucker, I don't think women receive more bad press than men do for cheating (or thereabouts). I agree that they're judged differently: the woman is the slut and the man the home wrecker but both equally bad IMO

SolidGoldBrass · 02/05/2013 23:41

Leave your colleague alone. It is not her fault that you have developed a childish obsession with her. She does not owe you anything apart from professional courtesy, and while she may well be aware that you slobber and fiddle with yourself every time you look in her direction, she will be pretending that it isn't happening because she doesn't want any kind of romantic interaction with you. It would be unethical and unprofessional of you to insist that she takes notice of your penis feelings.

If your marriage isn't working, end it. But don't end it because you think that this will then entitle you to affection/sex/dates with the colleague who is not romantically or sexually interested in you. She is a person with her own life to lead and if she thinks of you at all it's probably as 'that loser drooling over me who gives me the creeps.'

AnyFucker · 02/05/2013 23:35

Bimba, think very carefully before you answer this

Do you think so many excuses and rationalisations are made for women who act like this ?

or do they receive a disproportionate amount (in general society) of judgement for looking outside of their marriage and not "working" on relationships

BimbaBirba · 02/05/2013 23:32

I agree that telling her (the colleague) is a truly ridiculous and self indulgent proposition though (unless the OP
is 15)

Mumsyblouse · 02/05/2013 23:31

I don't think the OP should just leave. I've suggested lots of ways he could revitalise his marriage, as have other posters. But in all honesty, the OP doesn't seem to be wanting to go down this route because he's spending lots of time mooning over his colleague

BimbaBirba · 02/05/2013 23:29

It could have been a woman writing that OP anyfucker.
I don't understand what having a cock has to do with it and why you think that us women are better than that?

AnyFucker · 02/05/2013 23:25

A "rough patch" is it ?

Op is acting like a lovestruck buffoon and his wife knows it.

He will be lucky to "get through this" with his marriage and work profile intact

It won't be down to him if that actually occurs though...it will be down to the women in his life indulging him and overlooking his idiocy

A bit like you are doing, BB

Don't worry though, it's quite common for men to be indulged in this way. It happens all the time. It's because they have a cock, I am led to believe.

BimbaBirba · 02/05/2013 23:24

Really who are we to say that this marriage is over and he should leave? If the OP eventually manages to get this crush out of his system and works hard at his marriage at the same time, in a few years' time he might rediscover that person he fell in love with and have an even stronger relationship.

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