Apologies in advance for TMI.
There are two parts to this post.
- It's a Sunday and I happen to be alone, working away from my family (within Covid rules) on a project and so have time to think. Plus this has coincided with seven consecutive days of quite disabling stomach cramps and loose stools and rushing to the loo in the night and early morning. Yesterday, thinking I was nearly better, I ate a proper meal for the first time in seven days and today I am paying for it again.
Prior to this I have had about eighteen months of having had diarrhoea for two or three days about once a fortnight (in between everything has been ok). I had an ultrasound scan which said I had a spastic colon. I have also been very tired recently. I am absolutely terrified I have bowel cancer. I know I need to seek medical help and not advice from strangers but right now I am alone and in a blind panic and desperately need some reassurance about what to do to the best given that ... .
- ... when I go to the doctor they will recommend colonoscopy/endoscopy and that is something, along with drowning, that terrifies me most in the world. I already have acute anxiety around hospitals and dentists. I can barely tolerate having my teeth cleaned by a dental hygienist. The thought of someone putting a tube down my throat and not being able to breathe brings on this paralysing fear which is stopping me going to see the gp again. I know I would be breathing under sedation of course but even so the thought of even being minimally aware is terrifying me.
I know I need to do it as I have a husband and teens but right now I can't get past the anxiety symptoms in order to behave in a way that is rational and sensible.
Does anyone know of any other diagnostic treatments available please? Swallowing a camera pill? Having an endoscopy under a general anaesthetic? How would I access these?
Also, if you have had bowel cancer, do my symptoms sound familiar?
Does anyone have any wise words that will stop me playing ostrich?
I'm notmally a reasonably sane, sensible person so I feel incredibly embarrassed that I can't just go ahead and endure an endoscopy and colonoscopy like anyone else.