Please help!
I work in a very aggressive field that has a considerable proportion of male workers.
I present as extremely self confident and self assured. This external shell used to match up with how I felt inside; it no longer does.
I have had some terrible experiences over time involving bullying and harassment which has taken a serious toll on my self esteem. Throughout this, I just kept going and maintaining the front. Inside, I feel broken, worthless and highly anxious.
I have a crucial make or break work event coming up next year where it is essential that I am at the top of my game. Not this but think of a prolonged assessment process with a turbo-promotion on offer. My professional self -esteem is rock bottom and I urgently need to get my inside matching up with my outside.
Can anyone recommend any professional confidence/self esteem boosting training or counselling services? Money is no issue and I'm willing to pay if the service is good.
(If it's relevant, I would really need someone who was used to training those based in alpha male hostile work environments.).