Would anyone like to join me? I am a yo yo dieter, a failed WW (could not bear the small portions) failed SW (went wild on Free foods) and I eat too much of the wrong sorts of food. I binge then starve and I want to get out of that cycle. I also enjoy my evening 3 glass of wine a little too much! I feel bloated, pasty, tired and I hate how I look in the mirror. I am about to hit 40, and I refuse to spend any more time hating myself. I want to deal with my psychological food issues, and I want to finally be the woman I am meant to be.
I am 5 ft 2 and weigh 11 stone 3.
My aim- to increase fruit and veg. To cut out wheat as I bloat very badly on wheat. To take as much care over my own diet as I do over the diets of my children and my husband. To not treat my body like a rubbish bin.
As of this morning. I am tired. My skin is pale and blotchy. I am very bloated in the stomach. I am aiming to lose 24 pounds, but want to do it properly and without feeling deprived. I want to make this process luxurious, with a focus on gorgeous healthy food.
Today's plan:
Breakfast - fruit and natural yoghurt with a drizzle of honey.
Lunch - home made carrot and coriander soup.
Dinner - fresh veg risotto.
I need ideas for delicious alcohol-free drinks. Currently I love a splash of grapefruit juice and soda water.
Anyone want to join me? The focus is on good food, and to deal with the psychological issues around bingeing and self hatred. I am not a psychologist, just someone who needs- and can offer support!
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SnowyWellies · 24/01/2013 06:21
Thanks for the welcome 
funny you should say that snowy I am taking the dc swimming tomorrow with a friend. I hate it and usually avoid it like the plague!! I think the self loathing stems from my inability to control myself, I feel pathetic and weak willed. I can compare my binging on chocolate to an addiction, I literally crave the feeling it gives me and thus the cycle continues!
I intend to get up for a run before dh goes to work in the morning, if I start positive it may help. I will try breakfast too
I had
No breakfast 
Lunch - ham wrap and fruit
Tea - shepherds pie and broccoli
Snacks- curly wurly, crisps, go ahead bar
It's the snacking that needs to go!
That was a 'good' day, the day before was a binge day. Took dc to the cinema - popcorn, pick n mix, crisps, bacon rolls, 3 curly wurlies, 3 go ahead bars etc!! I feel ashamed to write it down but it's true. Was up at 6am out running did 3.5 miles and burnt 410 kcal so a good start to the day. Off swimming in a bit. Have a good day to you all
Go going with the running flossie. Sounds a good days food too.
Not great here
10.30 cereal bar
Lunch tuna salad and banana
2.30 cereal bar and hot choc (60 cal)
Dinner chicken goujans, oven chips and beans
Then had a penguin and handful of sweets from valentines. So did not need them. Will try and shred in a bit although not feeling the love today. Have shred everyday so far.
Hi all how was your days? I was reading some of your earlier posts. snowy you said you read a book about addictions and that eating disorders can stem from something else. I have often thought about this but I honestly can't think of a single thing. I have binged for as long as I can recall. I use chocolates and sweets as a meal substitute as there isn't much else that I like as much in terms of food. Maybe I'm lazy or maybe it's a really really bad habit but I do accept that it's all in my head 
I want to like myself I really do. I know how to dress well but don't because I feel I look too fat!
Today has been another 'good' day where I've managed to remain in control. Met up with my family at my parents and there was lots of very tempting food but I reigned myself in and had one pork and stuffing roll hmmm! Did have a small slice of homemade cake but have been for another run this evening - not easy in the bloody cold! Back at work tomorrow so just making some leek and potato soup.
Hi all
Well done on another run floss. Not to bad here yesterday 141.6lbs so slightly less. My problem are these bloody sweets dh got me for valentines. 
Going to start binning them as don't have the will power not to binge on them.
Yesterday food was relaxed but not bingey bar the above bloody sweets. Decided to do shred level 2 thurs night for a change - bad move hips painful.
Not much planned for the weekend. We were on about going to frankie and bennys however if do I have the steak and salad which is tasty then the 200 cal pudding!
Have a good weekend
morning and hello to all the new joiners
I've had a really busy week so have logged in everyday and had a quick read of the thread which has really helped keep me motivated so thanks everyone
Snowy thanks for the reminder of the saying "my body is not a rubbish bin" so true! I'm adopting this as my new mantra.
Coolkat totally agree with you on the carb front, I just can't do without them and severely restricting them for me perpetuates the binge/starve cycle and consequent yo-yoing. I do "get" the science of it all so see the importance of not overloading on them though.
Flossiechops I know exactly what you mean when you said that your relationship with food effects your relationship with your family. When I'm at a "high" weight and eating any old rubbish I feel really angry with myself, particularly when I compare the slimmer version of me with the fatter version of me and things that wouldn't normally bother me really get on my nerves and I'm more short tempered.
I surprised myself by not having that blueberry muffin on Monday and even eschewed the sugar ring doughnuts and giant chocolate cookies that my friend had bought round ahem for the kids. I wasn't hungry and although I did look at them a few times I stopped and had a conversation in my head with myself. I'd read something the night before about short term gratification - taste/feel in the mouth/not wanting to "offend" someone for not eating something versus long term gratification - feeling healthier/not being cross with yourself/getting into those jeans that are now too tight etc. and so I thought about that when I was looking at the doughnuts and I decided that in that moment the long term gratification was more important to me than the short term gratification. So I didn't have one.
I tried to apply this way of thinking all week and it worked quite well. I did have a lot to drink tuesday night with an old friend but I made the choice to not have a started or a dessert, so just dinner and lots of wine and I felt like that in itself was a massive step forward. Nothing wrong with having a starter or a dessert when you're out for dinner but for me on that day I just didn't need either.
On wednesday I had lunch with a couple of friends - I choose a fish stew! It was delicious, I really enjoyed it and felt like I'd really nourished my body. I did have a large glass of red but I stuck to the one glass although if we hadn't of had the kids with us who knows if I would have stopped there 
Yesterday at my mums for lunch and chose the smallest cake on offer - a Fabulous Bakin' boys mini muffin. It would have been easy to have had 3 or 4 "as they're only small" but I'd had soup and a (small) piece of lovely bread with a couple of slices of "naice" ham and I was full. I didn't really need the cake but I did fancy a little bit of something sweet so I had it and then said to myself that it was a sufficient amount for that meal. Later I had a chocolate finger - but just the one.
I've got no plans this weekend, I think my husband is planning to make us a curry for dinner which is much healthier and I'm sure much nicer than one from a takeaway. Mini goal for the weekend is to lay off the booze. I've had some this week and a clear head helps me make better choices.
Hope you all have a good one!
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Avoided take out tonight by getting a meal in from m and s. meringue and strawberries for pudding
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