Hi all, thank you for all the responses
@sylviaplath247 that exactly how I feel, walking away would be the ultimate last option. In my eyes you don't just throw in the towel when things get tough.
Our chat actually went well and everyone managed to stay calm. We started off with just me DF and DSD1, ended up with her mum on speakerphone for most of it and then she asked for my DD to come down.
We started by saying we were worried about her and that we were going to make an appointment with the doctor to see if there was anyone she could speak to. She said she doesn’t want that and do we think she’s a psycho? 🙄
She admitted she is very jealous of DSD2. She said it hurts her that everyone likes her little sister so much more than her. She said everyone is always happy to see her sister, but no one is happy to see her.
She says people are always hugging and kissing her sister. Which is true. DSD2 is very tactile and if she is anywhere near you she has to be touching you somehow or hugging you or wanting to sit on you or be picked up. It’s just the way she is. DSD1 is not like that at all and does not like hugs. She said that herself tonight that she doesn’t like hugging but it makes her jealous when people hug her sister
She said everyone’s attention is always on DSD2 first. Which could also be true because as soon as you/they arrive DSD2 will run straight to you for a hug so your attention automatically goes straight to her (she isn’t being malicious, she is just a happy bubbly child that likes people)
From a few other things she said it sounds as though she is actually jealous of her sister’s personality in general. DSD2 is a people person, can chat to anyone and is always bubbly and happy. We told her that everyone is different, everyone is their own person and that is fine, but what isn’t fine is how she is behaving at the moment. Her personality isn’t an excuse to go out of her way to upset people
She said she feels like she is nobody’s favourite person and no one really cares if she is there or not. In the family, her mum and her boyfriend are each other’s favourites, me and DF are each other’s favourites and my Dd and DSD2 are each other’s favourites but she feels like she isn’t anyone’s favourite. We reassured her that we love them all the same and that we don’t have favourites but that’s the way she sees it.
We kept getting the point over that we all loved her very much, but we don't like her behaviour at the moment
She said she keeps thinking about how happy she was when it was just her, DF and her mum at Bond Street (house they had before DSD2 was born) this made me realise that she is the only one out of our 3 kids that has actually “been through” her parents splitting up and can remember life before it happened. I was never with my ex (DDs dad) so she has never known us to be a couple, she has always had us separate and DSD2 was only a baby when DF and their mum split so she doesn’t remember any of it. All she remembers is our family being the way it is just now.
DSD1 does feel excluded by my DD and DSD2, she said she used to like it when they were younger, having a sister basically the same age and she liked that they would do things together but now DSD2 is bigger and has joined them, she feels pushed out and that they don’t include her in things. They stick up for each other and will back each other up on things to make it so that she is always wrong and they are right, even if one of them has to lie (I wasn’t aware of this, or if it even happens but I have noted it and will watch)
She said they always decide things just the 2 of them (what to do etc) and then she has to ask to be included or to join them
She said she breaks their things because when they exclude her she feels like they shouldn’t be able to do these things if they won’t let her join in.
I was trying to tread very gently while fully getting across the point that the reason they exclude her is because of the way she treats them
She gave the makeup brushes back. She said she took them so that my DD would have to come looking for them.
She admitted to eating the yoghurts, she said she was getting back at DSD2 and said she put the crisp packets on the floor to wind my DD up as they weren't talking to her. She is still adamant that it was her own can she drank tho
She said that she feels like everything she does is wrong and that even when she is doing something right, she does it the wrong way and ends up getting told off anyway. She said she is fed up being the bad one and that no one ever gives her a chance to explain. She is just always automatically wrong, or to blame and no one questions it
She blew up a few weeks ago at her mums, they ended up having a screaming argument and her mum took her phone and sent her to her room but she said the reason she blew up was because her mum shouted at her for ignoring her when she wasn’t ignoring her. She said she could hear her mum talking but didn’t register what her mum had said because at the same time her mums boyfriend was trying to show her something on his phone and her sister was trying to get the boyfriends attention too. Everyone was talking at the one time, her attention was already on her mums boyfriend so she looked at his phone rather than answering her mum and it escalated from there but she wasn't given a chance to explain that and never is
She said that when her mum and sister fall out, her sister goes to her room to calm down then their mum goes up and they make friends, but when it’s her, she just gets left in her room. No one comes to see her, ask if she’s ok or ask her side of things. Her mum said she thought that was what DSD1 wanted because anytime she goes near her too soon after they have argued it escalates and they end up arguing again
She brought up some things that I didn’t even give a 2nd thought to. 2 of the plastic cups they take drinks to bed with them in melted (stupid me put them in the dishwasher) so I bought 2 new ones shaped like pineapples to replace the melted ones. She said DD has one of them and DSD2 has the other one, she didn’t get one and why did I only buy for the other 2. I honestly never even thought about it at the time. The cups all just live in the cupboard and they grab the first one that comes to hand each night. There isn’t normally specific cups for a person. I just bought 2 cups to replace the ones that melted.
DFs mum also handed in a bag with slime kits, baking stuff and other bits in if for them all to do during lockdown. DSD1 says there was only 2 of each thing in the bag. There was loads of stuff tho and I never really paid attention to what came out of it. I put the baking stuff in the kitchen and DSD2 took the rest upstairs. DF called his mum and she said that yes, she had bought 2 of everything but she had been meaning for them all to do the activity together. she thought one kit wouldn’t have enough bits in it for the 3 of them so bought the 2nd kit to be used as spare materials. DSD1 has taken it as her being left out tho
She said she feels like no one respects her but she knows she probably doesn’t deserve it due to the way she goes on
When my DD came down she said something about DSD2 being scared of DSD1 and she became very upset. She said she didn't realise her sister was scared of her and she doesn't want her sister to feel like that about her
She says she finds the constant arguing and drama within her friendship group very draining. She said she doesn’t know where she stands half the time, she is never sure who is or isn’t speaking to who as it changes so much and she is constantly scared to say the wrong thing incase she says it to the wrong person and she ends up being fallen out with herself. She knows it isn’t healthy but she doesn’t want to be left on her own or have the whole drama of walking away from them all and having them all then united against her (there are around 12 girls in this group)
We said she doesn’t have to do the whole dramatic falling out with them thing. She can start speaking to other people and gradually be less available when she makes other friends
Her school has clubs at lunchtime so when they go back we are going to look into her joining some of them so that at least then she will get a chance to mix with some other kids and spend less time with this group at school
We are going to have a family meeting today, set some ground rules for everyone in the house and wipe the slate clean. Her mum is going to do the same thing at hers when they go back there tomoro. I'm going to try the game thing tonight, put all the girls in the same team and letting them win. Try to build some bridges between them
It sounds as though she is just feeling beaten down by life, she is unhappy at school and at home and wasnt getting a break from it.
We reassured her continually that she is loved and wanted very much, and that it’s her behaviour recently that we have an issue with, not her
We really need to work on building her self esteem
I am going to keep an eye on it tho and DF knows he needs to step up. He also didn't know that DSD2 was scared of her sister. I think that shocked him a bit. I'm not expecting miracles over night, but if it doesn't improve her mum is taking her to the doctors to see if there is anyone she can speak to