I feel so depressed, hate my husband, feel trapped, just want to cry

[SeaBrook]

I have name changed but I'm not a troll, please be gentle, feeling tearful

I just feel so depressed with life and everything. My husband is a complete twat, sometimes I feel like I hate him and I think he must hate me but I don't know why. I try and think back to what I may have done to him to make him like this and I just can't think of anything. I just cannot carry on like this anymore I feel so lonely and trapped I cry all the time, I have a permanant headache, I can't eat anymore because my stomach is constantly in knots. I weighed 10.7 on new year's day and I now weigh 8.5. I'm sure I look terrible for it too and that makes me feel worse. Sorry for going on, I just want to talk to someone, I have nobody around me

[Cawfee]

I’d love an update here. Did you get out of the marriage OP?

[Paige0923]

You really need to get out of this relationship , hes abusive fullstop ! And if he keeps tresting you this way you will end up suicidle , depressed and ill wIth many ailments , stress has a huge impact on anyones physical health. If he's accusing you of cheating then it makes me suspicious about what hes doing. They always say those who accuse maybe contemplating or doing it their selves . Just think about this . And ask him straight out without him having to think about lying . Watch his body language . I used to know when my husband lied he would blink his eyes .

[Paige0923]

Im ill with many things caused by my abusive husband , from ptsd , aches and pains all over my body , I want him to leave he won't. Hes been very abusive beatings , shouting , pushing , threats , etc etc . Police involved . Splits . I've endured 20 years of this . I've gone to marriage counselling twice , ive done everything to make it work . I've never ever seen him square up to man, even when a man has chatted me up said things to him about me " . Hes never been aggressive with someone else. A few years ago I know he cheated because he was very distant for a year . I'm not an unattractive woman I look 10 years younger than my age , i dress fashionable and smart , I look after myself , and always get attention when I go out . Hes stubborn won't leave and I have a 16 year-old at home so I want to do it as amicable as possible. I have very low self esteem .

[hellsbellsmelons]

@Paige0923 this is a very old thread.
Please do start your own thread so we can give you some support and advice.
People will see the date on this and just not read to the bottom.

[oofadoofa]

Leave, immediately. Any practical reasons that may be holding you back will be manageable once you get the process started. As it stands now, you’re literally wasting away and feel threatened in your own home. Logically, that is unsustainable, and the changes he needs to make to his whole way of being will take too long to implement for it to be of any use to your immediate health.

Walk away, seriously. It could be life or death.

[chickenloverwoman]

Zombie thread.

[Paige0923]

I have no where to go no parents no family no friends that could possible put me up. Id go in a heart beat if i could , he has still got parents so i have asked him to leave and i have the same thing , i love you etc i shut it down as soon as he says them 3 words .I just say to him your idea of love is not mine . The house is in my name .hes constantly threatning , stating wait till I'm 40 years old which is 2 weeks away. What he means by this I dont know , dont know how an age makes a difference , I just think he has a plan . Immature threats.

[Downtrod]

I am in a loveless marriage my husband doesn't love me and always puts me down. He is a heavy drinker and lazy but is always saying I don't do enough. My youngest daughter is at Uni but still lives at home I want to break up but he just tells me he is going nowhere I put the deposit down for the house if I leave I don't earn enough to pay rent please advise what do I do I am so miserable and depressed

[myrespite12]

I have been so sad and depressed since i moved in with my husband,in the first year of marriage he was so emotionally abusive,i would cry and ask him to please stop treating me bad,and he just tells me that my tears/emotional blackmail dont move him,sometime back he took to coming home late without a good reason,when i confronted him,he pushed me around and held my neck threatning to strangle me,he finds it so hard to do anything for me,for christmas he gave me a cheap perfume and nail polish,he didn't even get me a flower for valentines day,he tells me i look old and ugly,im 30yrs,i asked him for assistance in house chores and he got upset, and started yelling at me,once he got angry and walked out of the house at 9pm because i asked him to please bring in the lundry while i was doing dishes. Now i just found out i am 5weeks pregnant and i dont want this baby,the thought of having a child with him makes me sick to my stomach,i am so confused and i dont know what to do next.