Firstly - I have been drinking...although because I never drink, it is two glasses of wine...but I do feel tiddly.
In July, my OH left me. We have had a bit of a tough time...I was diagnosed with lymphoma in 2003 and our teenage daughter has been very troublesome. But I didn't expect him to be so cowardly...to simply walk away.
I have tried to be patient and kind. He has said that he has problems and now needs counselling. But today I called him to tell him that we have a very bad problem with rats in the garden...please could he sort it out. I have had so much to deal with and I really feel at the end of my tether. We have animals and a house to maintain - I am finding it all too much.
Basically, he told me that he is going away for the weekend. My daughter is also going out on New Years Eve to a sleepover. I have decided really that I have had enough. Thinking about it carefully, I think Beachy Head would be the best option.
I know that I sound pathetic - but I heard today that my blood test results are also not good and that I may have to come off my drugs, that have really been helping.
I have tried.....but the thought that he has put himself first...he was once such a lovely man, so unselfish.....
I feel so alone.
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I now feel as if I have no hope and I really don't want to go on any more
Punkatheart · 30/12/2011 20:57
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