Nightmare start to the day! I am hating being a parent atm.

[Pinkchampagne]

Woke up to screaming because DS2 had thrown DS1's transformer down the toilet. I went in & the toilet was full of urine because he had obviously been to the toilet first, so flushed it thinking the toy would bob to the surfice. I know I should have saved it using the toilet brush, but I flushed before DS1 put his hand in the toilet. Well the bloody toy flushed away didn't it!!
I sent DS2 to his room for doing something so nasty & told DS1 I would buy him another, but he just went totally hysterical on me saying he didn't want another one, he wanted that one back & he hated me. He then came screaming into my room & started throwing things. He then pinched his brother & continued the hysteria saying he wanted to die.
I have apologised, told him I would replace the toy, told DS2 I would take one of his toys from him. I don't know what else to do.
Every day is a nightmare atm. I am really struggling on my own with these boys. I am sitting here in tears again because I am feeling out of my depth being a mum. I can honestly say that I am not liking being a mother one bit atm.

[citylover]

Mine have today too causing me to have a major meltdown and actually walk out the door in tears (am stil very PMT)
and standing outside for a few minutes.

Surely it wasn't meant to be like thiis?

DS2 got up and was happily watching TV DS1 comes down and wants to watch something else and is just generally dispruptive. It ends in a fist fight. When I try to break them up I get hit !!

However I have been out wit hDS2 and DS1 has tidied the living room while we were out so perhaps something got through!!

[Pinkchampagne]

Oh dear, it's hard isn't it? Mine are often like this.
Got different problems this evening as DS1 (nearly 9), is getting himself in a state because he wants me to live with his daddy again. Not quite sure how to handle this one.

[citylover]

I am afraid I have been quite matter of fact about that sor t of thing with mine and of course they can now see that their dad is living with new DP so they have had reality pushed in their face. Plus the new babies of course.

That's hard though because that's what they utimately want mummy and daddy back together. Can't imagine how that feels for a child.

Hopefully the fact he expresses it to you is good PC.