SO I have generalised anxiety and paranoid halluncintations/delusions under stress. I take anti depressant and anti psychotics. Cannot work atm and am completely reliant on dh. Also 34 weeks pregnant with dc2. DH at home full time with me as unemployed.
Dh wants to go into town for a couple of hours one day for a break - he hasn't really had a break in 3 months as I cannot do being on my own for any length of time. Can do up to an hour or so on a good day. Bad day I struggle for 30 mins while dh does school run.
Today he has taken ds to drs then school and then has gone to dentist to collect prescription (dh has problem with his teeth - in a lot of pain). Yesterday I managed to take ds to school by myself so dh could run to pharmacy as had run out of painkillers (at my suggestion). But it really has taken it out of me.
I'm trying to pretend to be normal and do normal things, but it is ahrd work and exhausts me completely. Today is just too much. But dh could really do with a break and I feel horrendously guilty for not letting him have a couple of hours off. He won't push for it if I say no and willtell me not to feel guilty. But I feel bad at how much pressure this all puts on him as it is. I can't even look after ds alone.
Dh is the only person I really trust atm so can't really rely on anyone else to babysit me.
Words can't describe how guilty nad awful I feel about this and the whole situation.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Mumsnet hasn't checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. If you have medical concerns, please seek medical attention.
Mental health
feelilng so guilty about this
17 replies
TheArmadillo · 22/06/2010 09:17
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.