I'm just so exhausted. I feel like giving up and genuinely feel like I don't want to or can't carry on. I don't know if I'm suicidal or not but I keep having thoughts that it would be better for me and everyone else if I just ceased to exist.
I'm so burnt out on a daily basis with work, housework, 3 kids (2 of them toddlers), studying part time. Then there are money worries. Housing worries. School worries. My relationship with DH is so up and down, I'm always on edge and never feel safe or content. He has been abusive in the past. Thought things were getting better but something happened today that feels like the straw that broke the camels back. I also think I might have OCD so my head is just a constant mess of intrusive thoughts and me swinging between trying to rationalise them and acting on compulsions or seeking reassurance. That takes up so, so much of my mental and emotional energy.
How do I pick myself up and have the strength to carry on. I feel like I have nothing left to give.
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Desperately low and don't want to be here any more
Tiredandsadtoday · 13/04/2024 22:21
Heartflutterbuttercup · 13/04/2024 22:32
Do you have trauma? What you describing here sounds like you are experiencing trauma responses/ trauma symptoms.
Seeing someone who specialises in trauma-informed be they therapist, somatic practitioner or coach, could be a game changer for you.
I'm sorry it's tough. What can you take off your plate right now?
WishesPromised · 13/04/2024 22:37
I hear you. Sometimes life is overwhelming, disappointing, joyless and just shit. But everything changes. Nothing stays the same. Think about something small, tiny even, that you can do tomorrow to make it easier for you. There will be something. Just do a tiny thing to remind yourself that progress and change are possible:
Tiredandsadtoday · 13/04/2024 22:31
Thank you for taking the time to reply. It's like I never have chance to stop and think, and now I've just hit a wall. I feel so desperate and low.
Tiredandsadtoday · 13/04/2024 23:40
Thank you @FizzyDucks. Can I ask what the Samaritans did for you?
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