How do I bring back the joy?
Married to a wonderful dh. Got a lovely dd but bear the scars of a troubled childhood and young adulthood. It just all really hurts and I can't be bothered with years more councelling.
Ny mum abused me badly when growing up as did my 1st bf and everyone elae since. Bullied at school, work etc.
My current dh loves life and is a people person. I hate most people as I get hurt and have one friend I trust. I don't want to drag him or dd down.
When I got married my dad said he wouldn't give me as much towards the wedding as I cost him more than my sister when growing up. Not true.
He helped in the end but I'm still angry...only as I told him I didn't want him to walk me down the isle.
I'm even more angry that my dad got together with my ex friend's mum 5 months after my mum died and never once spoke to me about my mum.
Ex friends mum has got really upset that I have distanced myself and pit lots of pressure on me to play happy families.
I really struggle with work and always have ( on waiting list for asd assessment) and my dad loves rubbing it in iabout how he dosnt have to work anymore whislt going on his 100th holiday this year.
As for my ex friend...dont go there.
Im not suicidal but dont want to be here and wish i was never born. How do i cope?
On list for yet more councelling!
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I don't really want to be here but not suicidal.
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malificent7 · 10/04/2024 15:02
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