I'm wanting to seek advice from people regarding my adult sister.
We've had a very strained relationship for twenty five years and I've been left utterly confused and heartbroken by what I have perceived as hot and cold behaviour from her.
When we are in a room together, she's extremely nice and friendly. She talks incessantly though and she doesn't stop to listen to me, plus I can't get a word in edgeways anyway. My father (who had HF autism) was very violent towards me from the age of two and I have repeatedly asked family members to never speak about him in front of me as it triggers feelings of trauma in me but my sister just carries on mentioning him and telling me information I don't want to know. She can talk non-stop for eight hours straight. When she's doing things by herself, she's still talking to herself. I find that exhausting as I pay attention to what she's saying and in conversation, want to respond in a way that builds the conversation. But I always feel like there's little point, and so much is left unsaid because there's no room for me to speak.
She can also be extremely forgetful. Over the years there have been numerous parking or speeding tickets. She became pregnant not once but twice because she forgot to take her contraceptive pill. She recently went on holiday and didn't even remember where she was going. At Christmas, I gave her some veg I'd grown on my allotment but accidentally left my favourite kitchen pairing knife in the bag that I'd used to cut the veg stalks on the plot. It took twelve reminders, post-it notes placed in the hallway by her children and numerous texts to get her to remember to bring back the knife to me.
Then there's the time blindness. She will forget to eat (because she's talking or immersed in a task) and I make her stop to eat lunch. Recently we've had some hefty family related tasks to do to clear down a relative's house. I've asked to meet her at a certain time at the house and she is always late or has thought she can squeeze in a morning appointment beforehand because her sense of time planning is challenged.
She admits to procrastinating and this is where things become very upsetting for me. I've sent her very important questions or messages that needed either an answer or some form of reciprocal validation and she doesn't respond. This has left me feeling really unappreciated and unloved. When we're not in a room together and she's gone back to her family, it's literally like I don't exist! I don't hear from her for weeks, months and it's always me who initiates contact. Over the years I've sent birthday presents to her children and half the time I don't even know if they've received the presents as nobody ever says thank you, or even, 'I got your gift'. It's just a complete blank.
The most hurtful part over the last 25 years has been her over promising. She's suggested we go away on road trips or adventures, she tells me she loves me and we have each other....then when I ask if we can start planning the road trip etc, she literally doesn't respond?!?!
I have finally been diagnosed with C PTSD as a result of this relationship that I just cannot understand. In June last year, when things between us became so strange and confusing, my brain actually melted and I had a personality/reality break down from the stress. I've asked her to leave me in peace as I cannot face another 25 years of this. It's been soul destroying. I just do not understand why anyone would say they love me and then disappear with what looks like no intention of following through with actions to prove it. It's all gas and no mileage.
So please, if anyone reads this and recognises what could be ADHD, this would bring me some peace. It's not like I can say to my sister I suspect she has ADHD. That's for a professional to work through with her. I don't think she's even aware of it.
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Could it be ADHD?
Heatherland77 · 09/04/2024 13:30
WhatsTheProblemSarah · 14/04/2024 18:07
I've got ADHD and can talk incessantly. However, I'm quite self aware and know when to reel myself in, but it's hard and sometimes it almost feels like I'm bursting from holding it in tbh. But I've also got Dyspraxia and was observed to have 'obsessive behaviour' by my educational psychologist as a kid so part of it could be down to that. However, there's often an overlap and lots of people with Dyspraxia also have ADHD which is why I mentioned it.
InattentiveADHD · 14/04/2024 18:16
Incessant talking is v common with ADHD. I get that feeling of "bursting" if I can't get it out as does my DS. Talking in groups is v difficult if the conversation moves on and I haven't had a chance to say my bit yet! 😩I've been known to follow my DH around the house as I need to finish ranting what I am saying 😳. Luckily he's v understanding! Me and DS don't talk constantly but when we get going it can be hard to stop us. My DH doesn't tend to get a look on when both me and DS are in the room!
WhatsTheProblemSarah · 14/04/2024 18:07
I've got ADHD and can talk incessantly. However, I'm quite self aware and know when to reel myself in, but it's hard and sometimes it almost feels like I'm bursting from holding it in tbh. But I've also got Dyspraxia and was observed to have 'obsessive behaviour' by my educational psychologist as a kid so part of it could be down to that. However, there's often an overlap and lots of people with Dyspraxia also have ADHD which is why I mentioned it.
WhatsTheProblemSarah · 14/04/2024 18:31
Yeah, I totally get that 'needing to finish' bit. I don't mind listening to other people but feel I need to get it all across first. That's what made me wonder if it was a slightly OCD element instead as it's like I need to get every detail across before they reply. Realistically, though, people don't absorb every little scrap of info if you talk for two mins so it's ultimately less effective than a back and forth discussion.
InattentiveADHD · 14/04/2024 18:16
Incessant talking is v common with ADHD. I get that feeling of "bursting" if I can't get it out as does my DS. Talking in groups is v difficult if the conversation moves on and I haven't had a chance to say my bit yet! 😩I've been known to follow my DH around the house as I need to finish ranting what I am saying 😳. Luckily he's v understanding! Me and DS don't talk constantly but when we get going it can be hard to stop us. My DH doesn't tend to get a look on when both me and DS are in the room!
WhatsTheProblemSarah · 14/04/2024 18:07
I've got ADHD and can talk incessantly. However, I'm quite self aware and know when to reel myself in, but it's hard and sometimes it almost feels like I'm bursting from holding it in tbh. But I've also got Dyspraxia and was observed to have 'obsessive behaviour' by my educational psychologist as a kid so part of it could be down to that. However, there's often an overlap and lots of people with Dyspraxia also have ADHD which is why I mentioned it.
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