Hi, I gave birth to my beautiful baby daughetr 12 weeks ago after years of fertility treatment and eventual IVF. I didn't suffer with pp depression as far as I know, but have noticed I am getting more and more intrusive thoughts: awful fears and anxieties about something going wrong or losing my baby somehow. I have a history of depression and anxiety (relating to fertility issues and loss/bereavements). The thing that's worrying me most is that as time is going on I am feeling worse instead of better. I worry that I might fail as a mother in some way or that there's some underlying health problem with my baby. It is getting so bad that I will sit up at night for hours with her, just watching her sleep. My husband doesn't know how bad this is and I'm scared to tell him, but I am absolutely exhausted and starting to worry that the exhaustion in itself is a further risk factor to my baby. >< I'm scared to seek help in case they think I am unfit to be a mother and take her away from me (as silly and extreme as that sounds). I tend to feel more relaxed during the day time and can shake off my worries more easily and really enjoy being a mother, but as the night time approaches - after about 6pm onwards I start feeling that dread again. Am I alone feeling this way? Any words of advice or empathy would be appreciated. Thank you.
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Postpartum Anxiety/Intrusive Thoughts Relating to Baby
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AkashaCat · 05/01/2015 02:49
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